Anything again

[Dirty Hippy]

I've got these montelukast pills I am reading they cost under 10.00 to make, market, distribute but the pharmacy marks it as 170.00 for these tiny pills that barely do anything. It's for allergies.

I don't pay 170.00 but I think it's kinda scammy that "list price" can even exist.

[Dirty Hippy]

Dirty Hippy / Hippie

The way I see it if someone is white trash it's pure dysfunction.

If somebody is a dirty hippie they are dysfunctional but still having a life in spite. Spiteful living.

[Hopalong]

That's interesting.

I sure wish stellar, outstanding, Scanda-quality public education for every single zip code was priority one.

Gotta nice afternoon ahead:
--visit to tax place to sign and pay for the extension (not fun but good to finish)
--cafe beer meet with Birdnerd
--possible meet with dogsitter pal

hugs
Hops

[Dirty Hippy]

That sounds like great community time and also adulting productively.

[Dirty Hippy]

I'm thinking I need a nap.
Yesterday I walked 6.6 miles
Today I probably did about 6.4 miles
I'm guessing 7 miles would max me out.
I'm not in great shape or bad shape.
New friend is into outdoorsy stuff which is fantastic and we seem to both not know where our limit is at.
I think I need to de-prioritize exercise and then again my anxiety also seems to push me to do it.

Went to church it was nice.

[lighter]

Sounds like you're walking into new, interesting territory, Meh. 

Exploring a limit.....the outdoors, new friendship, and a church's offerings...... while sitting in nonjudgmental awareness.

It feels solid.

Lighter

[Hopalong]

From my pathetic physical point of view, you're in AMAZING shape, Hippie! I measure my progress in half-blocks. Small blocks, too.

Bravoooooooo. I'd bet anxiety will continue to settle the more time you spend in nature. Hope you can find happy ways to keep it up. (Preaching to self again....)

Hugs
Hops

[Dirty Hippy]

Life Plans

-- write something here
(mind draws a blank)
(Google says blank mind IS A RESPONSE to the prompt)
doing little morning tasks
will come back to this

[sKePTiKal]

Huh. I've had a life; don't recall making any plans for what I did. Now, there were things I WANTED to do: have kids, go to art school, go horseback riding out west where I couldn't see a single fence. Oh yeah - live near "big water".

Maybe thinking about what you want (including what you've dreamed was possible) will give you a way to access ideas for "life plans". Man, plans are so contingent/conditional on so many things... they almost always change.

[Dirty Hippy]

Yes Skeptical it seems contingent.

[Dirty Hippy]

Church people:

Pros:

- some of them are mellow
- sometimes relaxing
- encourages types of reflection
- I'm okay with prayer
- structure
- community
- it's a type of socializing

Cons:

- I'm not into the "lord" -- "father" -- "king" -- "he" -- "him" -- feels too male dominated talk
- I do not really like the focus on the afterlife part (and this seems to be basically the whole thing of it) - feels cult
- Today I was thinking how their "friendship" also feels like a conversion project -- yuck --
- They are basically still in colonization mode
- I don't want to give them money A) I'm poor B) they send it overseas as many churches do.

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I might take a break from church.

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- socializing
- community
- purpose
- positivity
- structure

These things don't have to be linked to the magical daddy king sitting on a cloud in the sky

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Also I am not unitarian -- they are too politically marxist language aligned

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So --- I propose I worship seagull shit

Sigh

enough of this thought pattern moving on

at least I am getting real about me

[Hopalong]

Very real. Also honest, pragmatic, and in touch with reality.
Good thinking, imo, Hippie. (Lifetime compulsive editing affects my spelling.)

Hard to do when transportation's such a chore, but my experience in recent years is that finding a form of person-to-person volunteering is a soul-saver for the lonely or isolated.

Sending wishes that the right "fit" will be found, even for a dirty hippie.

hugs
Hops

[Dirty Hippy]

Thanks Hops. Good luck to you too.

I read hippy is a legit less common English version and some people claim they always saw it as hippy in the 60s. I'm just gonna stick with my original misspell because just owning my own lack of editing? idk

Eating some blackberries and having a free beer I didn't plan.

Going to meet a friend tomorrow do some nerd city stuff. I prefer nature though sometimes one has to compromise.

Reminds me check the forecast. Huh. Well not rain for next week socializing.

Anyhow enough about me I suppose.

Oh I was going to say that I had this bright idea I should make pasta salad to take to visit my friend and we have a picnic amongst doing other things. So I boil the pasta this morning and then come back later and cook other stuff to go in it saute garlic... cut up veggies... make ice ... and I am thinking what the HECK HECKEN HECKERS was I thinking I'm tired and I made a mess and it took time and now I have to wash dishes with my dry skin hands.

All the things I used to like to do they aren't working for me -- picnics, cooking, creating -- none of it is working. Oh wells.
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I'm not giving up. My alarm is set. My plans kinda laid out and now that I have over planned everything I will exhaustively just relax.

[Hopalong]

You just sound like you're LIVING, Hippy. (I like it that you like your original). Also loved the...conjugation?....of HECK, lol. I will still think of you as Boat That Rocks from time to time, such a peaceful image....

Have a happy picnic, it sounds yummy. We're finally getting some rain here which is cold. And wet. Things will start exploding into bloom. Irises are over already, but peonies are popping.

hugs
Hops

[sKePTiKal]

I like Gold Bond for moisturizing my hands! It soaks in pretty quick and sticks around.