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Dirty Hippy

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Re: Anything again
« Reply #195 on: June 22, 2026, 05:02:06 PM »

Date Registered:August 06, 2009, 07:33:21 PM


Been talking about the same shit forever.
Tomorrow same shit.
Next week same shit.
Next Month same shit.
Next decade another decade of same shit.

This is the natural structure of my life.

I'm totally not going to try to fix or change anything at all.


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Re: Anything again
« Reply #196 on: June 22, 2026, 05:22:19 PM »
1. The Power Threat Meaning Framework (PTMF)Published publicly in the UK by the British Psychological Society, this framework was specifically designed to replace psychiatric checklists. Its core argument is that symptoms like depression, anxiety, and dissociation are not "chemical imbalances"—they are logical responses to power imbalances and interpersonal threats (abuse).The Argument: They openly state that handing a victim a pill changes the question from "What happened to you?" to "What is wrong with you?" This effectively protects the abuser or the broken system by putting the pathology entirely inside the victim's brain.

2. Dr. Bessel van der Kolk (The Body Keeps the Score)One of the most famous trauma researchers in the world has pointedly and publicly attacked the pharmaceutical-industrial complex for this exact issue.The Argument: He has repeatedly stated that Big Pharma poured billions into convincing the public that complex trauma responses are just molecular glitches. He argues that blocking a traumatized person's panic or numbness with chemicals allows society to ignore the child abuse, incest, and domestic violence that physically altered that person's nervous system in the first place.

3. Dr. Joanna Moncrieff and the Critical Psychiatry NetworkDr. Moncrieff, a prominent British psychiatrist and researcher, has spent her career publicly poking at the drug companies. She led the massive study that debunked the "serotonin chemical imbalance" theory of depression.The Argument: She argues that psychiatric drugs do not cure diseases; they act as psychoactive numbing agents. By prescribing them to people in miserable, oppressive, or abusive life situations, the medical establishment is essentially using chemical sedation to help people "tolerate the intolerable," masking social and familial problems rather than addressing them.

4. Investigative Journalism: Anatomy of an Epidemic by Robert Whitaker This investigative book heavily criticized the skyrocketing rates of psychiatric drugging.The Argument: Whitaker documents how the pharmaceutical industry marketed drugs as magic bullets for internal defects, which effectively shifted the blame away from bad environments, childhood trauma, and severe isolation. The pill treats the body's alarm system as if it is broken, ignoring the fact that the alarm is going off because the environment is actually dangerous.

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Re: Anything again
« Reply #197 on: June 23, 2026, 06:06:02 PM »
OUCH, Hippy.
That's a painful list, especially for someone as intelligent and creative as you are.

I can relate to all the burnout, and the difficulty tolerating the massive boredom of those sorts of positions. Sometimes we just can't fit the mode, even when we try.

I think for some brains, a switch just flips and we can't undo how we feel.

I don't know a perfect answer, but hope you can continue to find some relief in therapy or perhaps diagnosis/meds.

You should not be wasted.

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Re: Anything again
« Reply #198 on: Today at 12:22:11 AM »

- So tonight I went to a craft gathering thing I had never been to before.
- There was a range of ages
- The table layout was not conducive to meeting people
- It was a long skinny table so I ended up just talking to the lady in front of me mostly listening
- She seemed jittery and wasn't the most relaxing person to be around
- She said she has ADHD
- The vibe was nerdy not arty
- I was mostly just quiet
- I somewhat wanted to ask people what their particular project was but I also didn't feel like it
- I made some throw away thing from random scraps and I hid it at the venue so I didn't have to bring home
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- I tried a new group of people
- I don't feel like i learned anything and only feel like I met the person directly in front of me
- I did arrive about 20 mins late

Was it worth my time I feel like not really. It WAS social exposure. It was kinda unproductive feeling for me.

They were openly bashing Christian churches which somewhat doesn't bother me as I have reservations about religion as well though it didn't seem to cross anybody's mind that someone in the group might have some positive association.

Nobody seemed very curious about each other. Like they didn't seem to be trying to get to know eachother or MAYBE they were idk. I sort of tuned them out when they were bragging about chemistry courses as if they were still college nerds but they're older.

The way I see it is why go out of my way to commute and arrive at a location when I can do dumb throw away crafts anywhere.

I didn't socialize very well but the whole thing was low pressure but also I felt somewhat invisible which normally doesn't bother me but this was meant to be a social event so what exactly is the point.

Being social really is an art form.

I'm not sure what my take away is from this.

I would rather be doing other things.

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Re: Anything again
« Reply #199 on: Today at 01:14:21 PM »

So i've tried to go out and meet people. Been trying for a few months.

The "chosen family" thing seems to be a myth.

I did make one new friend.

But I've also come to realize I have to end my friendship with a different old ex-friend.

This process I had to think about a while. When I was younger I didn't think about friendships they just came or went like the ocean tide.

Being that I now see how difficult it is to meet new people and not just meet people but turn that into potential friendship it's not an easy thing. It takes a lot of time, routine, effort.

Well being that I am reading more about "emotional maturity" etc. and after an old friend flaked on me a few times. I've realized I've put more time into that particular friendship than I should have. She also did something recently which was sort of a hurtful betrayal in a way. I thought about it a lot. I decided to not say anything to her about it as that would also be more emotional labor and she wouldn't understand or likely not even care what I am talking about anyways.

So so far after months of trying to go out more I made one friend and lost one friend.

People my age are really not making a big effort to make friends because they're busy they have careers and families.

And then there are the people who are hyper social. And I'm not sure they are looking for friends maybe they are looking for entertainments. idk.

I guess I learned that investing too much in a friendship can be a bad thing if it's one sided effort. And it's okay to just move on. Said ex-friend probably will not miss me anyhow.