What a rich, loaded statement:
I dont want to lose another girl because she might be threatened by my ability to stand up in front of 100 strangers and make them laugh.
Think about these things. It might help you figure out your LIFE:
What do you get from 'having' a girl? What does a relationship mean to you? Be specific. Is it sharing thoughts, doing things, sex, comfort, friendship, similar interests, political beliefs..having kids....etc
Do you
want a relationship where someone
might be threatened by any aspect of you? If they're frightened....they're not mentally mature are they? What would frighten you about a girl?
Did you enjoy making people laugh? If so,
don't give it up. Please don't give up something you enjoy. You have to enjoy life WITHOUT another person. On your own. By yourself.