Hi chutzbagirl and welcome!

Birthdays have been a PIG for me too! I’ve tried to give them up, lose any importance attached to them, so instead I’m nicely surprised by good things.
I’ll try some advice: don’t expect others to anticipate your needs, instead, tell people what you want – otherwise they won’t know. How about:
“Dear Hubby, this is going to be a tough birthday for me because of my mom. I’d really like you to do some things for me if you want to.
I’d like a birthday cake, with a candle on it! And I’d like that in the morning before you leave for work/school.
I’d like a CD of x music, or this book x and a bunch of flowers. And those would make me really happy.”
Could you do that chutzbagirl, ask for what you might want? What do you think? best, P
PS. Try not to think about your mom on your birthday, think of your own family. She doesn’t deserve your thoughts on
your birthday.