You might remember I have a 13 year old daughter as well. I am hoping to move with her after her 8th grade year as well (son will be in college). Maybe this is our final year of hoping and preparing before we step into our lives!
yay, wouldnt -that- be cool! i am holding that as a wish for -both- of us. D. seems to be planning on it. she keeps saying 'when i am here' and 'when i bring my computer' and things like that. wouldnt that be cooooooool!!!!!!
I have a hard time not putting tons of stock in everything my daughter says. She is also in a confusing situation, so I am so careful about things. However, most 13 year old girls are just plain wierd. I know I was, and my childhood was pretty normal/nice. I used to go in my room, shut the door and sing into the hole in my guitar.... and emote and be dramatic and I am sure if my parents hadn't already known this about kids (having 8 older ones) they would have dragged me off to be examined. I guess I'm writing this to reassure myself more than anything about my own daughter.
well.......... I know...... maybe its worse becuase I do not live with her.. and havent for so long....... its really tough to do a lot of parenting this way...... they have undermined my authority so, that its a real challenge to assert any and do much damage control...

and, its really not the normal weirdness of being human and alive that concern me, its the more twisted weirdness that comes from systematic emotional repression...
you know, i run a pretty expressive household, we spend an awful lot of time in dramatic play and dress up roles and singing and expressing ourselves in all types of ways, we are very physical and do a lot of activities that encourage freedom and open expression. we deal with emotional issues very openly. i think that is healthy, and she was a lot more mentally healthy when she was here and lived that way... her behavior was better, her social skills were better, attention span, everything.
its when you start getting emotionally repressed and made to feel ashamed of yourself and told that acting 'strange' means you are crazy and this type of thing, that 'weirdness' becomes what i believe to be unhealthy...... she is not allowed to jump and run and climb and play and be free, or sing or dream or anything like that that normal people (in my mind) do..... not allowed to be mad, or sad, or say what she really thinks or feels. i grew up like that.. its an incubator for mental illness.
she lives in her head totally - the only thing its ok to do is read books or draw - thats how i grew up and im a freaking mess. i keep telling them i want her in sports, drama, track and field, anything to get her out of her head, and you know they totaly ignore it.
drawing and reading is great and im glad she has it but theres other aspects to life if you want to be a well rounded socially skilled emotionally healthy human being!! her energy is all over the place, she is skittery and hyper and very unfocused, and while i know that is partially normal for a twelve year old, i also know that over this two weeks she has calmed down considerably and her behavior has improved a ton, just with working with her this two weeks. when you dont repress someone, they dont have need to rebel with crazy weirdness and strange who knows what. they can just express themselves, healthily. sometimes it -looks- weird, but its still -healthy-.
so - its not the normal weirdness that i have a difficulty with - its the twisted weirdness that comes from being repressed....
also - you know its a personal issue becuase, its my freaking -parents.- i already lived the results of their parenting style and it screwed me up but good..... its pretty heartbreaking to see her go through the same meatgrinder. you know, i wanted to give her better that the crap i had to go through. it pisses me off in a big big way and id like to pour salt on them and watch them shrivel up like snails. (evil, self centered snails)
either way - it has been a very healing visit and we had some very important discussions about a few things. she just wasnt quite ready to talk about it before but she is more and more.
i think if im here to pull her through it and i can keep in contact and reestablish authority and with a LOT of work she will come thru it stronger in the end. i think that more every time i see her. so that at least has been positive.
i do agree that it isnt the traumas that happen to you that shape a person as much as how much support they have dealing with it, and how they are helped through it that defines how its ultimately shapes a persons character....... just a theory. something to think about anyway.
hope you are doing ok and hanging in there. yes this visit has been ultra cool and we saw a lot of very good alan rickman movies. its been largely delightful.
take care mum & all. (october

) thanks for helping.

d's mom