Hi Spy!
Well what the hell am I supposed to say to ya! It would be a case of the blind leading the blind!!! We're a terrible duo we are!!!
We're birds of a feather!

All jokes aside, I know where you are and it's a place that comes with nothing but ache... prolonged ache that just doesn't "give".
((((((((((((((((((SPY))))))))))))))))))))))
I think I have hopped on a new band wagon now... and that is, books.
I just can't seek outside help anymore (a therapist), It works for some but not me . Though the support is nice at the end of the day, you just got to do the work yourself. You know best. No one OUT THERE can tell you the answers.
You know what I have discovered Spy? I have discovered that the pain of loneliness (well, all pain in fact) subsides when you do something to ease it. Now that may seem like common sense, but it's very difficult, because you gotta figure out
what eases it.
This time I am not talking about "Take yourself out for a walk" or "Go and get your hair done" I mean something needs to be done at a deeper level... why else do we keep returning to this place?
The pain of loneliness and being alone is especially tough because it seems so big. At the end of the day, it's not important what it feels like, it's there and you gotta cope with it. So can you find something that you can focus on to help ease your pain. I'm not talking about ignoring it, I'm talking about dealing with it constructively. Is there a book that you could read that would speak to you? Could you channel your energy into writing about your loneliness? Meditation? You will know you have found the right thing when your pain has subsided.
You seem like you are very knowledgable about stuff, but I bet you have something more to learn, something that you need to know. I bet you will be feeling this pain until you find it. If I were you I would start looking. Keep moving, because there is a lot of quicksand around these parts!
xx