I feel that it has been a rather surreal week on the board. Reallyme tried to attack me, it felt. Single me out. That was a little strange to me and totally unexpected. I think she's left and I'm sad about that. Well, maybe sad is not the right word. OK, worried. Where beliefs do not diverge, can there ever be supportive healing? I guess I'm feeling like I did not reach her, and that was my intent. I wanted to connect with her. I felt a sense that we were a lot alike, really.
I guess that is what happens, though. In life we try to control outcomes, we try to make a difference, but we don't always succeed. It must be very hard to be a therapist. I have tremendous new respect for therapists and psychologists and psychiatrists this morning for although they're not always perfect T's either (and certainly they're not perfect people), they try. I think that's important for some reason as I sit here in my hotel room. I'm waiting for my symposium to start. We are talking about nuts and bolts stuff. No feelings, just fact. but still i wonder.
Reallyme, if you're still reading this, you touched me in some way, I'm still thinking about you and yes I DO wish you were my friend. I'm not sure if it was for my benefit (I want all to be my friend as you say) yours, or the greater benefit of the community we live in.
well, I'm thinking of you, and of hops, pennyplant, stormy, write, brigid, mum, moon, sela, marisa, mud and others here. That's just what I do. I think about you all. I wonder and hope (and yes, even pray).
I guess that's all the feelings I'm having for now. One other feeling was the feeling of being misunderstood. but that's OK, that happens. I think it will be OK, the discussions I wanted to have, openly and freely won't happen today but they might someday. I will not give up hope for us. The people who come to this board deserve hope and caring. Friendship and support too.
bean
