Hi Brigid,
Yup... I have tried on about all of those survival masks at one time or another, too. Still, I ranked at a 4 on a few characteristics on the self-assessment quiz... unapproachability, shyness/aloofness, addictive relationships (ugh), lack of commitment

, running away.... yikes, sounds like avoidance oughtta be my middle name. Sometimes it's difficult to tell how much of that is basic to personality/temperament vs. a consequence of life experience. Anyhow, only had one "5" and that was on "self-containment" ~ aha! ~ which I have a hunch may be a pride issue. We shall see.
It does sound like you have made great progress, Brigid! "Bubbly" is good

!! I am still working toward bubbliness

, but I think bubbleability is a wonderful sign that the drawbridge is lowering and the gators have been removed from the moat. I 'm shooting for the goal of remaining simple concerning evil and wise toward that which is good. A couple of years ago, that concept seemed like an impossibility, but now I can see the Light...

Hope
On edit ~ P.S. to Moon... I believe that the answer to your question is in the Bible, the book of Romans, chapter 1:
:21 .....They knew God, but they wouldn't worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. The result was that their minds became dark and confused.
22 Claiming to be wise, they became utter fools instead.
24a. So God let them go ahead and do whatever shameful things their hearts desired.
25a. Instead of believing what they knew was the truth about God, they deliberately chose to believe lies.
26a. That is why God abandoned them to their shameful desires.
28 When they refused to acknowledge God, he abandoned them to their evil minds and let them do things that should never be done. 29 Their lives became full of every kind of wickedness, sin, greed, hate, envy, murder, fighting, deception, malicious behavior, and gossip. 30 They are backstabbers, haters of God, insolent, proud, and boastful. They are forever inventing new ways of sinning and are disobedient to their parents. 31 They refuse to understand, break their promises, and are heartless and unforgiving. 32 They are fully aware of God's death penalty for those who do these things, yet they go right ahead and do them anyway. And, worse yet, they encourage others to do them, too.
That's the definition of a reprobate mind. IMO, it explains sadism completely.