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Emily

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« on: February 09, 2004, 04:37:33 PM »
Hi everyone,
I've posted a couple of times, and lurk alot.  I feel like I know alot of you, but know that I have as yet to post my story.  I guess I feel sort of scared to post it.
So many of you talk on this board about the continuing hits and confrontations you have w/ the Ns in your life.  It's been sooo helpful to hear your stories, how you handle these clashes etc.  As soon as any of my Nparents or Nin-laws are confronted they excommunicate us from their life.  There are no e-mails, no phone calls, or threatening letters,...just silence...for weeks and months...nothing to their grandchildren, nothing to me or my husband.  Unless you come crawling back and apologize, they won't make one move of their own.
Probably some of you would welcome that silence, and in some ways it's liberating for me too.  But nothing?? This feels so controlling to me, and heartless.
Any thoughts?
Emily

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« Reply #1 on: February 09, 2004, 05:10:31 PM »
It's sadistic. They will contact you again when they need supplies. Until then, well....Just realize you did nothing wrong and distract yourself. You may find that you don't miss their antics very much.

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« Reply #2 on: February 09, 2004, 05:38:47 PM »
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« Reply #3 on: February 09, 2004, 05:43:05 PM »
I used to think I had been "abandoned" and "disregarded" by my family, at the direction of my NQueenmother -- but then I realized that "abandoned" would mean that I was examined and a decision was made to leave me, but I was never included enough to be left, so that was not a correct term. "Disregarded" means that I would have been looked upon and a decision made that I was not important enough for regard, but I was never looked at, so I invented the word "unregarded" and almost named myself that on this board.

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« Reply #4 on: February 09, 2004, 05:58:30 PM »
Discounted Girl: you're held in high regard here (even if you don't ever look at your private messages!) How does Counted Girl sound?  :D P

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« Reply #5 on: February 09, 2004, 06:28:09 PM »
I couldn't agree more D. girl.  You need a more positive handle!
CC - 'If it sucks longer than an hour, get rid of it!'

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« Reply #6 on: February 09, 2004, 08:40:20 PM »
What a doofus I am -- I wondered why I never got any messages, wondered how my invisible suit got online  :P  -- I had the wrong email address listed. I got it fixed now. :)

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« Reply #7 on: February 09, 2004, 10:39:19 PM »
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« Reply #8 on: February 10, 2004, 01:20:36 AM »
Ah, Swan, that's nice -- how did you know I had a long neck ?? You weren't asking me to sing my song were you?  :lol:

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« Reply #9 on: February 10, 2004, 01:38:51 AM »
Emily, you have it right -- they are heartless. My NQueenmother has not tried to directly contact me in almost 3 years. She has asked others to tell me that she wants to speak with me, to discuss certain things, but I have not made any efforts. The Queen has summoned me but I have ignored her. I don't want to be around her ever again. I don't wish anything bad on her, really down deep I don't, I just don't want her to get any more nourishment from me. She ate me alive for so long. Emily, N's never can get past their unrealistic sense of grandiose and importance. Respectful, loving children and those with compassionate hearts don't challenge them on their inappropriate actions of superiority (at least not for a while) -- others who are detached and those who are themselves N's or partial N's trick the N's into thinking they adore them and allow a sort of pseudo food-fest from time to time, aimed at personal gains. If you're not "involved," then it can't hurt can it? If your parents are N's, they don't experience the heartache and sorrow that non-contact with a child should bring. You don't need them, but you feel like you do. All little girls need their mommas. I don't know what to say to help you except this -- be very careful in the amount, type and quality of the contact your children have with your Nparents. Monitor everything and don't put anything past them. It's almost impossible for people who have not been victimized by N's to even begin to understand. I swear to you, if you cover it up as I did, your children will not be aware and when their grandparents' Nfaces are unmasked they will not know how to handle it.

phoenix

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« Reply #10 on: February 10, 2004, 02:36:48 AM »
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« Reply #11 on: February 10, 2004, 01:17:27 PM »
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« Reply #12 on: February 11, 2004, 07:14:50 AM »
Just something that crosses my mind: they know that by not calling they are hurting you. It's a form of having power, I believe.

I have had only few contacts with my Nmother last years, and I falsely believed I was detached and problems were getting solved. I didn't know yet she was N and I was still blaming myself and feeling guilty and not understanding anything like an idiot. And suffering of course, like all of you.

I believe it's only after going through a long way of understanding and restoring boundaries, that it will only hurt you less if they call or don't call randomly. It's the last weapon they have when you've run away: pretend as if it were their choice to ignore you. And hurt you from the other side of the globe like that. And seduce you to expose yourself again, pushing your newly constructed shaky boundary inward again.
They need raw flesh to scar or something ?!?

It might be that it's the only kind of extra hurts we can't protect ourselves against, after we finally unmasked reality and Nmother and saw the horror they really were.

Happily there's lots of other people to find that we will enjoy when they call, and that will respect these feelings.

Thank you all so much for the warmth.

Courage and love to all of you beautiful souls. I very recently discovered some love in me for the first time, and i'll want to send it to you all the first.

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« Reply #13 on: February 11, 2004, 07:24:20 AM »
How about this thought: if everybody knew it were the end of the world next week, I'll bet they would call before that.

So it's maybe a fake cut-off, and all by all a covert and coward form of attacking your weak boundaries again.

I think they shouldn't steal the cut-off from you (like it was not your cut-off, it was their idea).

Hmm. It's all so complicated. Still trying to figure out all this stuff.



This place and your posts sure help a lot.

Thanks again

phoenix

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« Reply #14 on: February 11, 2004, 11:22:23 AM »
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