Lost My Job and Doubting Myself

[Bones]

Hello Bones ,

This is such a rough patch.But I know there is light at the end of the tunnel .

What I have been doing is picturing in my mind (like a meditation) just seeing you soon very soon coming though all this hard stuff.
I am sure you will be finding all the stability in your life and all the dentistry care you need.

We are all wanting all that is good and comforting for you.Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  Bones take deep breaths and hold on !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rough stuff will not last forever.You will see................
Have faith and hang in there because we care very much.

love and hugs  xoxoxo
moon

Thanks, Moon.

I just had my first appointment today with the new dentist and she put me on antibiotics.  My root canal is scheduled for next week and I've also been informed that my broken tooth will have to be extracted because it is also developing an infection.  I also need to have a lot of other work done to repair the damage in my mouth to the tune of about $5,000!!!!  I'm trying to deal with one problem at a time.

Bones

[Bones]

Dear Bones,

  Ditto everything that Moon said here ... you are often on my heart. Please let us know how your dental appt. goes.

Love,
Hope

Thanks, Hope.

I just told Moon what happened.

Bones

[Bones]

Maybe your dentist will be cute like my son's

The entire staff that saw me today were all female.  The head dentist, who I think is male, was out today.

Bones

[Gaining Strength]

Bones

I don't know how you will get through this dental trouble but I am believing in a miracle for you.  It reminds me of someone from New Orleans who came with her extended family to live here last year.  She had developed a series of severe dental problems like you are describing.  She also had diabetes and so the infections were especially dangerous.  No insurance, no contacts, many problems.  And amazingly, step by step we found care for her.  I do understand that people opened doors for Katrina victims in a very special way but it was still a miracle.  I'm hoping for those miracles for you.

Your friend - Gaining Strength

[gratitude28]

bones,
I am praying you will get it taken care of a step at a time too! Take care and take it easy and feel better!

((((((((((((bones)))))))))))))

[Certain Hope]

Dear Bones,

  Congratulations on taking another step forward on the road to recovery. I'm with Gaining Strength in believing in miracles. They're all around us, small and great, once we open our eyes to see.
Wishing you the very best.

Hope

[Bones]

Bones

I don't know how you will get through this dental trouble but I am believing in a miracle for you.  It reminds me of someone from New Orleans who came with her extended family to live here last year.  She had developed a series of severe dental problems like you are describing.  She also had diabetes and so the infections were especially dangerous.  No insurance, no contacts, many problems.  And amazingly, step by step we found care for her.  I do understand that people opened doors for Katrina victims in a very special way but it was still a miracle.  I'm hoping for those miracles for you.

Your friend - Gaining Strength

Thanks, GS.

I'm hoping for something to get me out of this financial hole that is getting deeper.

Bones

[Bones]

bones,
I am praying you will get it taken care of a step at a time too! Take care and take it easy and feel better!

((((((((((((bones)))))))))))))

Thanks, Gratitude.

Bones

[Bones]

Dear Bones,

  Congratulations on taking another step forward on the road to recovery. I'm with Gaining Strength in believing in miracles. They're all around us, small and great, once we open our eyes to see.
Wishing you the very best.

Hope

Thanks, Hope.

I'm having a rough day today.

Bones

[Gaining Strength]

Bones,

I'm right there with you. 

I'm hoping for something to get me out of this financial hole that is getting deeper.

I'm in so deep that I so no way out but that is where I simply am having faith that opening my eyes and heart will shine a light on solutions.

I'm having a rough day today.

I'm sorry.  I hate that for you.  - your friend Gaining Strength

[Bones]

Bones,

I'm right there with you. 

I'm hoping for something to get me out of this financial hole that is getting deeper.

I'm in so deep that I so no way out but that is where I simply am having faith that opening my eyes and heart will shine a light on solutions.

I'm having a rough day today.

I'm sorry.  I hate that for you.  - your friend Gaining Strength

Thanks, GS.

Bones

[Certain Hope]

((((((((((Bones)))))))))))
I hope that today will be much better for you. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Hope

[Bones]

((((((((((Bones)))))))))))
I hope that today will be much better for you. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Hope

I've been resting today and taking my antibiotics.  I can't really chew so I haven't eaten anything.  I asked my boyfriend if he could bring me some baby food so I can get some nourishment in me but I have to wait and see what he will do.  It feels like he's not taking much of this seriously which makes me wonder about him.  The rest of the time I have been isolating because all the negative stuff I've heard growing up keeps coming back over and over again.  I tried to take this negative stuff to a psychiatrist once and his response was, and I quote, that I "needed a man and that would solve all my problems".  That finally convinced me that the psychiatrist was an idiot and I fired him.  This same idiot told me, at the beginning of psychotherapy, that he would "control my addiction for me" when he attempted to prescribe benzodiazepines and I told him no because I have a history of addiction to the stuff.  (That should have been a red flag right there.)  I'm wrestling with the messages I got growing up:  "Don't Talk, Don't Trust, Don't Feel".  I still feel like I want to hide.

Bones

[Certain Hope]

Dear Bones,

  Simple broth would be good too, maybe.

  Re: boyfriend... I'm not sure whether the male of the species ever takes the female's health needs too seriously unless those requirements directly impact him. I would recommend making sure he knows that he will indeed be impacted. 

((((((((Bones)))))))))  Please consider taking yourself out of isolation. It's so good to have some positive stuff to counter-effect all that negativity playing on those tapes in your head. Any shrink who thinks a woman just needs to "get some" has been reading too much Freud, imo. Good sense you used in firing the idiot!!  Oh, sheesh, Bones, you have had a time of it. I am just praying that this current season of trials is very short and very educational, because it's time to turn the page. You can peek out of your hiding spot whenever you have the energy and strength and find us right here waiting with open arms. I hope you know that.

Much love,
Hope

[Stormchild]

I've been resting today and taking my antibiotics.  I can't really chew so I haven't eaten anything.  I asked my boyfriend if he could bring me some baby food so I can get some nourishment in me but I have to wait and see what he will do.  It feels like he's not taking much of this seriously which makes me wonder about him. ...
Bones

Mashed potatoes with butter

Cottage cheese

cream of rice, it's instant, just add boiling water and stir, add milk or cream and let it cool some, especially if you're heat sensitive right now

pudding, and ice cream if you're not cold sensitive.

other instant cereals - oatmeal is especially good for the bones and heart

and don't forget Ensure, there are supermarket and drugstore varieties that are just as good for you and taste better. Rite Aid's vanilla version, in coffee, tastes like Bailey's I swear.

I lived for about six weeks on this stuff mostly, because of the ulcers rather than my own tooth trouble - you can manage if you take vitamins, for several weeks if you need to. Cream of rice has kept old folks in China alive when they have lost all their teeth, generation after generation, for centuries, it's called 'congee' there.

I did gain weight... but that can be controlled and reversed. And if you have lost weight recently, this may be just what you need. The food, not the pain...

I'm very glad they have you on antibiotics. What did they give you, if you don't mind talking about it?