Hey, Bones - I know exactly what you're going through. I lost my job 3 years ago and have not been able to get back into my profession since. To top it off, my attorney is to blame for most of it b/c he did not do the legal work I hired him to do. Now I have to face bringing charges of malpractice against him - and I may not be able to do that either. I have resorted to selling real estate and am about to go broke doing it.
Don't give up! Just let the feelings work their way through you - don't fight them! Know this: all these feelings will pass or fade in intensity. I know you can't see past your pain right now. PLEASE - just let the pain happen, notice it, allow it, and I promise you it will pass.
Towrite