Marching Through the Month

[Hopalong]

Hi all:
I would like to use this thread to touch on some waves of feeling, as well as some practical life issues I need to deal with, as I move through the last month of my job. Nothing specific, just whatever's happening. It's a big watershed in my life. I may find another, I may early-retire to near poverty, I may get a windfall, I may write. None of these paths are clear yet and won't be for a while. So on this thread I may just want to talk about the choices, tasks, and worries as they come up. I know there will always be support and cheer and wisdom here. Thanks in advance.

Yesterday, and lately, I've been thinking what a hit my health has taken since starting this job almost two years ago. The endless strain of dealing with this boss, who is manipulative par excellence.

Anyway, I'm off to see him for a meeting we have every Tuesday morning. He will deliver my evaluation, give me new editing assignments. He's been a bit bullying lately so I need to breathe, detach, and be very centered while I deal with him. If anyone's awake, send good thoughts around 8:15...thank you!

gratefully,
Hops

[pennyplant]

Hopsy, I will be punching in on my job at exactly 8:15 and at that moment I will send you some "power".  This thread is a great idea and I bet you and all of us will see some interesting things over the next few weeks.  It is a real crossroads for you.  I'm betting the next path will be a vast improvement over the current one!!!!

(((((Hops)))))

Love, Pennyplant

[WRITE]

I am (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I worry about you Hop, doing work you hate has the greatest toll on health, it's so relentless. When you said you were going to take a really boring job last week my heart sank for you.

Here's sending you some of my crazy risk-taking....only a drop mind, it's not all good!

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[Certain Hope]

Just stopping in to shine up your marching boots, Hops.

Can't recall which thread it was on, but somewhere I read that your test yesterday went well and your furniture survived.

Great news!

Is there any coffeecake left? 

Hope

[penelope]

hi hoppy,

well, I guess those jobs I offered you aren't good enough eh!  you want to go retire in poverty - go figure 

I can kinda picture you with your boots on and green fatigues.  Sargent Hops, reporting for duty!

..kinda exciting to have all these options, isn't it?

pb

[Hopalong]

thank you, PP, I think I felt it at 8:15 sharp! ((((((PP))))))

Write, you are so right. Thanks for seeing me, getting me, knowing so much. I'm trying to walk forward and notice I'm walking. One day/week at a time, and letting go of the outcome. Desperation has never helped. So I went out and bought blue shampoo to make my white hair look silvery. Heck wid 'em if they don't want an old woman!

Hi Hope. Test was fine though they removed one little polyp. Not unusual, and the vast majority are benign. But it'll be good to get that report about a week from now. Coffee cake...I can't talk about. I can't think about. I attacked it like a starved pit bull. Then I went to a church meeting feeling so gassy I thought something....ahhh....explosive might happen. (I sat by an open window, just in case.)

Thanks, Bean. Oh if I'd been smart enough to be a chemist or an engineer! Your work awes me.

More soon...thanks everyone so much, for your thoughts.

Hops