N Supply lady: its said to see u being used
ReallyME: no, you are not gonna ask me something and then throw in the "but it's ok,... it doesn't matter" cause if not, you would not have asked
ReallyME: ROFL
ReallyME: being USED?
ReallyME: by whom?
N Supply lady: you would really be surprised again
N Supply lady: girl
ReallyME: now I'm totally confused
ReallyME: surprised about what?
ReallyME: and used by whom?
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:47:11 AM): and sometimes I feel guilty
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:47:17 AM): cause i know it hurts u
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:47:24 AM): oh just people
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:47:33 AM): oh girl...it's only natural that you are blessed in a relationship with ___
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:47:37 AM): you are very much alike
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:47:38 AM): cause u love so much and deep like u say
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:47:44 AM): raised in similar ways
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:47:48 AM): and people who do that get hurt easily
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:47:51 AM): similar views on things
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:47:56 AM): that's understandable
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:48:16 AM): but keep in mind that I was given a very definite message in my relationship with her and others
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:48:28 AM): and that was, "you will NEVER measure up and so I will find someone who does"
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:48:42 AM): so yes, that sort of tends to stick in the back of one's mind
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:48:58 AM): and it's not something that heals...it's something that drives a person onward in life
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:49:09 AM): to keep working towards a goal
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:49:16 AM): yes but she knows she was wrong and saying it to u or how ever it happend
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:49:21 AM): and u seemed okay with it
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:49:38 AM): _______ I don't truly believe anyone is ever ok with that
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:49:44 AM): knowing they did not meet the mark
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:49:49 AM): in fact, ____ herself is not ok with that
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:49:55 AM): she is ever striving to meet it
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:50:14 AM): and you? I"m not sure if you feel like you are still striving to meet a mark
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:50:19 AM): of some kind
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:50:26 AM): nope
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:50:28 AM): not really
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:50:31 AM): I am who I am
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:50:32 AM): ok that's good
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:50:46 AM): happy where i'm at
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:50:55 AM): yes and accepted where you are at
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:51:03 AM): and isn't that what every person wants?
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:51:06 AM): acceptance
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:51:27 AM): yes true
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:51:42 AM): but I have learned that I can just be me and I"m accepted
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:51:48 AM): I put alot of pressure on myself
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:51:54 AM): yes around the right people, that is true
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:51:56 AM): noone else does its me
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:52:15 AM): well, I have an opposite problem...pressure of others, not me
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:52:29 AM): and I have to watch for the "self-righteous" attitude in myself
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:52:40 AM): yeah
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:52:41 AM): that I don't lead others to feel unaccepted
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:52:48 AM): cause that is not me
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:52:55 AM): and I think I found me again finally
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:53:18 AM): but I dare not ever forget what manner of man I saw when I looked into the mirror
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:53:22 AM): as the Bible says
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:53:24 AM): yeah
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:53:29 AM): well good for you
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:53:34 AM): yeah
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:53:46 AM): I spose
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:53:54 AM): anyway, I"ll let ya get back to business
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:54:00 AM): nice chatting with ya
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:54:04 AM): have a great day
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:54:25 AM): lol
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:54:25 AM): okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy'
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:54:31 AM): yes interesting chat
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:54:32 AM): lol
N Supply lady (10/28/2006 9:54:36 AM): take care ____
ReallyME (10/28/2006 9:54:43 AM): nah, I'm taking joy
