WOW!! Are we back?

[CB123]

I just checked in, and low and behold, the site is back!  Has it been back for long? 

Missed you all.

CB

[pennyplant]

I had to tough out some really lonely, frustrating feelings while the board was down.  I don't know if being able to post and read would've made it go better, faster, whatever.  But it seems that my feelings did work themselves out just as this board has come back.  I do get so tired of everything in my life being a learning experience, though.  Maybe someday I will be able to start a thread about great things finally happening.  I'm really, really ready to move on to relationships that bring out the best in me and in which I can bring out the best in someone else.  It has been a long, long time coming.

Glad the board is back.

PP

[Overcomer]

Yes, it has been a hard few days without a place to vent.   My daughter's friend was killed in a car accident and it has been a bad week.  She got hit the MOnday before Thanksgiving and died the Sunday after - 16 years old./......stress!!!

Frustration abounds.  Nmom is working through the selling our business - without ME.  Guess she is afraid of what I might say to a prospective buyer................so I'm just gonna let her flounder without me!!  We'll see if she can pull it off!

[WRITE]

hi y'all.
Hope everyone is well.

Sorry to hear of the young girl's death kelly, very sad.
Hope you daughter is ok, traumatic for her.

I do get so tired of everything in my life being a learning experience, though.

I hear you pp! I told G_d on the way home 'yes, I hear you, okay!!!'

Hope you're better now Moon.

Glad we're back too CB123!

[WRITE]

oh ps thank you Richard for gettign us back up and running!

[Bones]

Thanks, Dr. Grossman!!

Bones

[Gaining Strength]

boy!! I was getting to the panic stage.  I was afraid I would never  get back on line here and just today I decided to go ahead and mourn just as though it were a death.  Wha;t a joy to see the board come up.  At first I thought it was my imagination.  I am so glad it is real.  I have missed you all very much.  It was lonely without you.

[gratitude28]

PP...

Gosh do I know what you mean... I wish I could just LIVE sometimes and not work through everything every day... I wish I didn't have to analyze the wall papaer... I remember reading War and Peace and Levin started working the fields... he was a huge thinker. But when enhausted from physical labor, he was content and the thinking abated... Maybe we need a collective farm?????

Kelly, I am so sorry to hear about your daughter's friend. What a tragedy. How is she handling it?

GS... It was hard for me this week too and I was beginning to despair we'd never be back together. I tried to look up other stuff, but my heart wasn't in it. I missed all of you too much.

Moon, 123, bones, Dr. Grossman, storm, jac, bean, laura, october, portia, mr mud, CH (where are you), hops, ANS, anansi, LoH, sela, write, everyone... those I didn't name... just means my blond head isn't quite clear yet this morning, but I missed you all.

Love, Beth

[reallyME]

I must say, as pessimistic and opinionated as I can often be on this board, I am THRILLED that it is BACK!  I was starting to get concerned about some people who really rely on this place as their main or only lifeline!  I have a spiritual Mom who is that to me, but this week I had a rift with her for a bit and even THAT was hard to deal with.  Any sort of loss of a relationship is difficult, I know.  Thank you, Dr G for getting us going again and also to the fine guy who fixed this!  Blessya!

~Laura

[penelope]

hi all,

I am also releived this board is back!  A weird thing happened to me too without it.  I started sending articles to my N family via email.  Just random stuff about Narcissism.  I must have sent 10 or so emails.  I also wrote a long letter to my N Mom, and luckily found another place to post it (Dr. G's other site) before I was tempted to email it to her.  The yahoo site for Adult_children_dealing with N parent(s) was also there for me.  I don't know why but I had a lot of anger - it must have been building up, and I sort of released it.  I also decided to cut off contact with my brother too.  Since he's still talking to my abusive family, I don't believe I can continue to pretend this doesn't affect me.  So I blocked his email too.  Now I've blocked email from my whole family.  I had a dream that I was accepted by a Native American family - this was Sunday while I was taking a nap - and I lived with two sisters and their husband (they shared him?).  It was a very calming dream.  For some reason, this dream gave me a lot of hope and was a real sign of progress for me.  I have been having recurring nightmares about living with my FOO, being abused, and running away/finding my own apartment.  This dream was so dramatically different than those.  I felt it was a turning point, like my heart was feeling healed.  Like I do not need to keep that tie (my brother) to them any longer...

I was a very weird week indeed.  I guess this site helps me disconnect more with my Ns than I knew.

hugs all,
glad you all made it too

bean

[Hopalong]

Present and accounted for!
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII everybody!
I missed you too!

I panicked a little bit the first couple days.
I was like an infant...someone removed the apple, what if it doesn't exist? Waaaaahhhhhhhhh!

Then I started thinking, my board friends are just fine and I know Richard will get us going again.
(This after bugging the poor man with a couple emails...to which he replied very patiently.)

I wanted to control everything, though. I thought I should be ferreting out email addresses and writing people to reassure them.

Project, much? 

I feel like I just came into a warm cozy bright room with a fire lit and a big chocolate cake on the table and dear firiends all around (not necessarily in that order).

Thank you everyone for still being here, and thanks Richard and your good elf!

(I also found it useful to examine my voluntary dependence here too. Made me aware of that.)

Hops