Hi pennyplantI rather suspect you are right and that I have been hypervigilant longer than I guessed.
Since we use only 5% of our brain power--imagine all those forgotten images that are bogging things down along with those we remember.
Wouldn't we all be something if we could use 100%??????
Hi HopsYour message reminded me that I have often mentioned my memory problem, but never took it the same step further as you did in asking them to tell you again. I just said I
hope I remember your name the next time we meet--or something like that--I know we have talked about shame before.
I really dislike to say anything against my new Therapist, but when I mentioned about having no voice when I was little, she asked what I meant--I used 'voicelessness too. Also, she appears to be not all caught up in the shame thing--yet anyway. We are just getting to get into things. She also does not like to use labels i,e, Narcissist, but knows what one is in the basic sense of feeling important, etc, but never mentioned the Disorder........... of what the Ns have managed to do to destroy others' self-esteem. As in the case of my ex SIL, she is talking 'abuse" not the N control etc.
I really hope we work out. I usually give at least 10 visits to see if I feel we are connecting.
BothThese are symptoms of a Personality Disorder:
A. A pervasive pattern of detachment from social relationships and a restricted range of expression of emotions in interpersonal settings, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by four (or more) of the following:
- neither desires nor enjoys close relationships, including being part of a family
almost always chooses solitary activities
has little, if any, interest in having sexual experiences with another person ?
takes pleasure in few, if any, activities
lacks close friends or confidants other than first-degree relatives ?
appears indifferent to the praise or criticism of others
shows emotional coldness, detachment, or flattened affectivity
That is Schizoid.
I would rather have that label than the disconnected label-- as I take that as just wanting to be alone and reasonably content with it--and keeping away from people who are toxic.
Later
Love
Izzy