I think I have reached an area of major progress (though not completely, I almost got on here and freaked about this issue a few days ago...).
One of my husband's dearest friends and his wife came to visit us. We haven't seen them for about 4 years. I have known his friend since the day I met my husband (I met them together) and he is like a brother.
When I saw them last, I was quite a bit less of a woman than I am now.

So... what usually happens before someone comes to visit is that I get REALLY upset. I really worry what they will think of me and whatever shape I am in. I had a very little of that this time. Instead of worrying about me, I enjoyed seeing their kids and them. Alas, next week I have to get into a bathing suit as we are going to Club Med next week.
So I think this is good progress.
Thanks for listening!!!! Does anyone else have this issue?
Love, Beth