THE END- filing final divorce papers

[WRITE]

Okay, the hour of reckoning is upon me/us.

Thursday I am going in to court with my final papers to file them and speak to the judge.
Ex has filed citation waiver so I don't think he will even have to appear.
He is refusing to pay alimony if I have another child or co-habit, he is back on ADs and has that haunted look again. I am resigned more than dreading now, there's nothing else he can do to me.

If he takes son off to California well at least the last year has proved he can take care of him alone, and son has gotten older and stronger.

I will not fight him and I will not engage in any further battles, I am ready to disengage knowing that I will probably not exist if the NPD takes over!

But in resisting that for so long I've had my life on hold, so I can glimpse sunlight and a playful breeze through a chink in this mausoleum of a marriage, and I am loved by enough strong people to know that single life, remarriage, whatever happens I will be okay.

I have lost that sense of wanting 'justice' or a good resolution: what will be will be and I will be fine, even if it hurts some more.

I always knew that somewhere, I just forgot a bit. "I am a child of G_d" but I didn't want to be a helpless child....it's time I learned to trust again.

Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Hopalong]

Freedom Road, Write.

Many blessings flowing to you as you make this wise transition.

((((Write)))

Hops

[lighter]

Good luck, Write.

I know you'll be ok too.

I'm getting things in order and preparing to file the papers too.  It's time.   

[debkor]

Write,

You will be just fine is right. I really like your attitude towards things.  Your a breath of fresh air.

Love
Deb

[Ami]

Dear WRITE,
   You wrote something really profound in  another post. It was something about everything fading,but our relationship with God(paraphrase)
   I think that this is the answer to our pain. I am a big chicken who stayed married . I would not presume to give advice on the pain of divorce.
  I am just saying this in the general sense in regard to the pain of life.
  My goal is to have a "detachment" from people and situations and an attachment and dependence on God. That way. I will not be hurt as much and I will be able to survive and thrive in the vicissitudes of life..
  Anyway, you seem like you are facing your painful situation with very good sense and with centeredness. . My prayers are with you .I admire how you are handling your situation with your son. Wisdom is knowing when to fight and when not to fight.     Love Ami

[teartracks]

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[WRITE]

Thanks y'all!

I really appreciate you for continuing to support me through this.
No way could I have untangled my chaotic complex life without help: and that was a first too, askign for assistance. And getting it.

Life has opened out so much for me.

To everyone who's starting out or in the middle of it- keep going.

The end is in sight for me, or the beginning of the end
 

[Stormchild]

Congratulations Write!

(((((((())))))))

[pennyplant]

Wow, WRITE, this is big.  I will be thinking of you Thursday and praying for the best.  It may feel a little anti-climactic after all you have been through!  Sounds like the time is right, though.  All my best to you.

PP

[Ami]

Dear WRITE,
   Just wanted to say that I am thinking of you.I wish for everything to go the best for you. Thank you for all the compassion and wisdom you give on your posts                                          Love Ami