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lighter

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Healing is a roller coaster
« on: August 05, 2007, 12:33:49 AM »
Once you feel you really really realllllly really really have it licked..... it's sure to come back to bite you in some unexpected way: /

At least I'm having lots of strong happy times with my children right now. 

Counting blessings and not worrying about the little things. 

There were times I didn't think I'd ever be happy again, and yet, here it is. 

Hello happiness. 

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #1 on: August 05, 2007, 01:36:02 AM »
Quote
and yet, here it is. 


Because here YOU are  :)

I feel very happy thinking of you and your children, Lighter.
Your family.

Hops

"That'll do, pig, that'll do."

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #2 on: August 05, 2007, 01:57:44 PM »
I can't believe I have no problems and am starting to make- gasp- decisions!

Actual real ones where I way up what's best for me and my family....

I enjoy my son more now there's less trauma too.
We're going to get a kitten or kittens when I move.

Love
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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #3 on: August 05, 2007, 02:43:09 PM »
Ahhhhh Write and Hops...

I'm not quite ready for a kitten or pet yet but.....

I'm thinking with less confusion and enjoying more reality.


Enjoy that kitten with your son, Write.

::going out to the beach to build sandcastles with children::

Joy, lol. 




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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #4 on: August 05, 2007, 02:49:15 PM »
Lighter,

 You got a sieve?

There's something restful and satisfying about letting that fine sand run through one of those things...leaving behind the shells and pebbles...

Enjoy ((((()))))

Love,
Hope

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #5 on: August 05, 2007, 02:51:52 PM »
: )  Hope.

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #6 on: August 05, 2007, 03:20:59 PM »
:whispering - sorry for interrupting (and for borrowing light's writing style which is so enjoyable to read!):

WRITE - don't know if you were planning to go to a local shelter - just wanted to warn you to be careful.  2 weeks ago, my daughters convinced us to get them some kitties (still not sure how this happened other than there was some talk of wanting rodents of some sort).  We went to the local shelter, and they picked out 2 beautiful babies.

Turns out those 2 little kitties were very, very sick.  Almost lost them.  First they vet prescribed some disgusting pink liquid medicine that I had to squirt in their mouths, which caused them to foam at the mouth and leave copious amounts of pink-tinged kitty spit all over the floor, so they switched them to the pill form of this medicine, which I had to toss down their throats all the while holding their mouths open (poor kitties), then they needed eye medicine, then they got sick on the first medicine and we had to switch to another medicine, one of them refused to eat so we had to get prescription food that I had to force her to eat every 2 hours or so (and if you have ever tried to coat the roof of a cat's mouth with smelly, slimy cat food - you will know it has not been an easy couple of weeks for me or the poor kitty).....in total, those 2 little kitties cost us almost $1000.00 in 2 weeks (and we still need to have them inoculated and fixed).

They are now doing great, which is a miracle as the vet thought that they were not going to make it.

It wasn’t the shelter’s fault, they are doing the best they can, but they have no money for routine vet checks.  They also keep all the cats together, so disease is rampant (found that out a little late).

I don’t know if you have any PetSmart pet stores where you are, but they sponsor pet adoptions.  The cats are vet checked, inoculated, fixed, and fostered in homes (rather than a shelter) so the risk of disease is far less, and you can get an idea of the temperament of the cat before you bring it home.

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Lighter – I am so glad (for you and your kids) that you are able to find those happy moments and can count your blessings in the midst of the Nmadness (not an easy thing to do).
- Life is a journey not a destination

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #7 on: August 05, 2007, 04:42:14 PM »
::wondering what happened to that Stephen King Pet Cemetary looking gray cat with one ear and a big facial scar:::

He was the only wild cat I couldn't trap in our neighborhood.

I haven't seen him lately but you have me wondering what became of him.

He fathered most of the wild kitties, many born in my crawlspace....

Ahhhh..... the sweet sweet smell of cat urine when the heat kicked on.

MMMMm......

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #8 on: August 06, 2007, 06:53:59 PM »
Pretty brave to trap them - feral cats can be pretty nasty

Eau de cat ureene - lovely scent to permeate the home.  Did it ever go away (that smell can last forever)?
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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #9 on: August 06, 2007, 11:18:58 PM »
It did go away.... then it came back.

My neighbor was lamenting that her big fluffy white kitty ran away..... .and it hurt her heart.

I recalled that BWFK liked to hang out in my backyard.....

and that eue de catinkle was just about in the air the day before, lol.

Sure enough.... the little....errrr... darling was blinking at me when I went searching, again, for kitties under the house.

She wouldn't come to me so I lured her out with food and water.

Before I could close the door to the crawl.... she ran back IN!

::sigh::  She'd been under there for 3 days without food or water..... and she didn't want to leave.

I got something really tasty and lured her back out again.... this time I knew she was quick and not weak and motivated to pee under my house: /

Must be some prime kitty peeing space down there. 

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #10 on: August 07, 2007, 09:25:17 AM »
(((((((((((((((((((Lighter))))))))))))))))))

Yes, the roller coaster... I always think I am done... that I "get" it all and then, somehow, I hit one of those dips again. LOL. It's like Lupita asking Ami how you can understand things but not apply them to your own life. We mostly get it... and we change as we can.
Love, Beth
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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #11 on: August 07, 2007, 10:04:22 AM »
I've been so up and happy lately. 

NC has been a balm and taken pressure off me I didn't even know was there...... after all this time.

I realize I don't have to be subject to tyrany AND fear.

Just fear, lol....::Nodding cheerfully::

I choose not to live with it daily.

I re-visit it so I can tweek my life accordingly.

I plan as best I can then try to be a good mother and enjoy my life. 

I'm not saying things don't come up, they do but....... it won't rob me of living every day.

Even if the worst happens..... I'll have enjoyed my life and not died a little every day.

I napped by the ocean again yesterday.

It was so peaceful and enjoyable and reminded me...... there's more of this to come: )

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #12 on: August 07, 2007, 12:10:33 PM »
What a terribly long exile Shunned.  ((((you)))) 
Character, which has nothing to do with intellect or skill, can evolve only by increasing our capacity to love, and to become lovable. - Joan Grant

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #13 on: August 07, 2007, 12:32:36 PM »
My Dearest Lighter!

This is so true and so important! It certainly helps to know that the roller coaster phenomenon is a natural cycle, especially when it feels like there is no going up, and you have done something WRONG to cause it ( so deserve it). To relish the good without fear or restraint- that is energizing, freeing, and joyous...I had forgotten what it was like to relax and enjoy things! Thank you for this thread!

Hugs,

Changing

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Re: Healing is a roller coaster
« Reply #14 on: August 07, 2007, 12:42:53 PM »
Yup yup yup changing....


It ebs and flows. 

I know it's going to be OK..... no matter what. 

My mantra...... without thinking..... has been "it's Ok, it's OK'

Even when I couldn't feel it would be OK.

I've just been there so many times.... and always come out. 

The happiness will come again.

I'm always amazed that I feel joy to be alive again.

I trust it and the bad times have made the relief and pleasent times that much sweeter.

HOW ARE YOU DOING CHANGER?!??! 

You're back, lol!