Way to busy and am taking a break

[Certain Hope]

(((((((Kelly))))))))  Gee, I hope you're resting.

Hey, I have a "blonde" daughter, too   

Wish I could come help yours do that laundry... she'd learn!  muhahahaha   

More hugs for you... please rest up and feel better.

With love,
Hope

[Overcomer]

I went to a wedding tonight-Everyone ate steal and chicken-I had a few cites of mashed potatoes.  I think I like the oxycodon-I have bad cramps and those pills take the pain in my gut away AND get she of the cramps.  I need this stuff EVERY month!  I am really not hungry but I want some good food.  I want salmon.  I do not want chocolate protein shakes and chocolate pudding and sugar free popsicles and jello.  I want delicious chicken or soup or salad!  I have lost 13 pounds!

[isittoolate]

Hi OC

Happy to hear you are still with us and ready to take on the world. all the best to you now and all your years to come.

Love
Izzy

[Overcomer]

Thanks.  All I want to be is tall and slender like Iz when I am 68!  I am happy.  I am starving but I do not feel like I am starving.  I want to eat but I know I CANNOT RISK SCREWING ANYTHING UP!

[Certain Hope]

Congratulations, Kelly!!      13 pounds is a great beginning!  Your thoughts and "hungers" will come into line with the facts of what your body can accomodate. This is a major re-training of the mind and you are so brave!

Love,
Hope

[Ami]

Dear Kelly,
  I am very happy for the weight loss. Thank you for your,honest story on the beginning thread.
                                                                                                  Love    Ami

[teartracks]

Dear OC,

You're a real trooper, taking your life one piece at a time.  I'm happy for you.

tt

[Overcomer]

jac-  I really know what wor mean.  Even when I was quite skinny in high school I thought I was fat.  I believe the source of my low self esteem is my mom.  I have never been able to compete with her-SHE had to be the pretty and skinny one but like I said in my story, I realize she is really a phoney.  The fact that she has lost her power over me gives me hope that what she thinks of me just will not matter.  But the problem was I got to the point hormonally or whaterer that I just could not

[Overcomer]

lose the weight.  Now with this tool I can lord weight and hopefully keep those negative self tapes from becoming too loud in my head!

[changing]

Overcomer-

I am glad that you are better, and have lost those first pesky pounds! Now is the time to keep company with those people who recognize and support your beauty, inner and outer, and for the rest- banishment. Soon those dreadful "tapes" will fade from your conciousness, and you will hear the small still voice that says "Overcomer is fairest of thousands, altogether lovely".

Love,

Changing

[Overcomer]

Oh you guys made my day!  I never have people say those nice comforting and  complimentary   things to me!

[cats paw]

Hello Overcomer,

  I haven't written to you in a long time, just wanted to say how happy I am for you that your surgery went well.

  I am going to endeavor, yet again, to lose weight.  This time, I'm using a carrot on a stick, instead of just beating myself for having gained the weight.  My carrot is an Alaskan cruise that is scheduled for 2008.  I am going, no matter what, barring unforeseen events.  I just know I will enjoy my self so much more by being healthier.  This feels so different than the old "Oh, I have to lose some weight before ...... (fill in the event).

  You said you weren't really hungry but you wanted good food.  If you do not want to discuss this because it might take your focus to a negative instead of a positive, I understand.  I was wondering what your coping methods are, and will be as you go along.  Sure would be nice if there was such a thing as having oxycodone every month without the side effects, but I'm guessing that would just be another replacement for that "good food"?

   How's it going with the new house and everthing it entails?

Talk to you when you're able -

cats paw 

[lighter]

Oh Overcomer!  I so feel for you wanting good food.

When you do get to eat it again.....

try eating lovely green baby spinach salads with yummy carmelized chicken and toppings you adore like toasted nuts and raisins and dressings to die for.

See if you can't really get into habits that suit you..... that you don't have to suffer through. 

Small portions every three hours, plenty of protein and don't get too hungry. 

Keep that metabolism revved, appetite down bc you're fueling before you're hungry and eat live yummy stuff. 

I've been blendingcfrozen berries in the mornings and enjoying them all day, kept in the fridge.  So nice in this heat.

Maybe the key is to keep what you CAN eat on hand and in abundance, with great variety?

If you look in the salad bin.....  and find puddles..... you're going to choose something else, lets face it.

Ok... ok.... another thought, for myself as well.

They say French women eat only 3 bites of everything on their plate.  That's the rule.

That way they get to enjoy everything and still keep fit without having to agonize about it?

Not sure but so happy you're healing.

See you when you have time to pop in: )

[Overcomer]

Hey Everyone!!  I went to the doctor and got my stitches out day before yesterday.  I was worried that it would hurt - it didn't.  I do have five scars on my upper belly.  One is larger than I anticipated - about three inches or so - that is where the port is.  The port is where they access the band to tighten it.  My first tighten will be October 5.  Right now I am healing.  The nutritionist told me I didn't really need to eat pureed food if I keep my diet to really soft foods.  No veggies unless they are smooshy.  I had a Lean Cuisine and didn't eat the broccoli.  She told me for the first month it was more about portion control - no more than one cup at a time, then wait two hours and have another cup.  I had some spaghetti tonight.  I had a small bowl and no bread.  It wasn't that I was trying to eat that little, it was because that is all I can comfortably fit in my stomach.  This is different for me.  Usually I eat a plate full and probably two pieces of toast.  I guess that is why you lose weight - you just eat less food.   And guess what?  You do not feel deprived!!  It is wonderful!!!  I have lost 14 pounds!!  You guys, I could have starved myself before and been lucky to lose 5 pounds.....

Today I got a bill in the mail for $13,000.  I kinda freaked.  I had already paid the doctor for the whole shabang.  Then when I got this bill I though, "Oh, is it because they had to fix my hernia?  Surely a hernia repaid doesn't cost $13,000."  I called the hospital and they said they could see no indication that they had been paid at all.  I called the doctor (with my heart beating!!!!) and they told me the timing was off and not to worry, they would take care of the bill.  Whew!!!  That scared me.

The move is coming along.  In my past I would have had this house in ship shape - but with the surgery and all I do not have much energy.  My goal is to finish everything this weekend.  I have a cleaning crew coming next week and then a carpet cleaner....then I will list the house. 

The only bad news about the whole event is my husband is stressed and going on and on and on about how my kids don't help, etc.  And that the pool will be closed by the time we get there.  It was 95 degrees and humid when we bought the house - perfect weather to dive on in!!!

The good news is that next summer when we open the pool, I should finally after 20 years be able to go outside in public in a bathing suit.  Maybe I'll get a tan!!  (which is quiet the accomplishment because I am white as a ghost!)

Thanks for asking.  I am rambling because I am NOT on my phone and can type away!

[Ami]

Dear Kelly,
  I am really glad that you are doing better and that you have good things to look forward to.
   You could try self tanner. Some of them look natural.
   I saw a demonstration on Home Shopping with  a really fair red headed girl who looked so great with the self tanner-- not fake at all.
    I replied to your post  about your mother on the Our Stories thread.                  Love   Ami