Sending hope, ToWrite.
I was at the end of my rope, too. Growing out my white hair, walking with a limp, getting turned down or ignored for every job I applied to. This town is full of overeducated, frisky young people who work for crumbs and can compute in their sleep.
I remember feeling an unexpected thing one night: "It will work out. It willl be okay. There is always some choice to make. Something will change and I don't know what. Meanwhile, I need to eat some protein."
Soon after that, this new job I love came along (I also reached out and made it happen).
Please don't despair. Some businesses and organizations are beginning to see how much wisdom and work ethic they get from hiring older employees.
Sending vibes for you to get some good news SOON.
love
Hops