And does it surprise you so much that you chose a relationship, like that with your mother, to work on....
to overcome....
to finally find the resolution you've been searching for since you were a toddler?
I'm not.
Time to give up that hope..... symbolically, literally and figuratively.
I'm up for a moonlit, candlighted ceremony if you are.
But don't let it defeat you, Lupita.
It's just familiar and you're so tired of that dance.
Time for a new dance.
Time to celebrate with worthy people.
It won't feel right at first....
saying yes to people who don't ring familiar bells when you meet them but....
it'll lead to support and healthier things.
It will lead to adult relationships that are based on the present moments in your life.
Not a script you've been following, up to this point.
It's not the surgery or the dresses that heal you.....
it's the fact that you're investing in Lupita's needs, wants and desires.
You're nurturing you bc that's your job.
Feeling good about yourself and trusting your instincts is RIGHT.
Feeling defeated and beating yourself up.....
remaining mired.....
is wrong.
Make some good decisions and stick with them.
Enforce boundaries. That helps cut out a lot of the trouble, right there.
Do you want to do something, just for you?
Do it.
Celebrate your victory without dance boy.
You don't need him, I promise and the sadness will pass.
Fill that space with something else.
I think if you just went dancing tonight you'd feel better.
Not a lot... you could manage that?
Count your blessings.
Remember the lessons when something doesn't turn out the way you'd hoped.
Don't assume you have nothing to offer.... I assure you.... you do.
WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE CELBRATING THAT I WAS APROVED TO HAVE MY OATH NEXT WEEK FOR CITIZENSHIP. I WORKED ON IT FOR TEN YEARS. HE DESTROYED MY JOY, LIKE MY MOTHER ALWAYS DOES, HE BEHAVED EXACTLY LIKE MY MOTHER, THAT IS THE WAY MY MOTHER BEHAVES. THAT IS THE WAY MY MOTHER TREATS ME!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
