"I did everything to have a "little voice",but it was never little enough.. It always brought scorn."
This must hurt.
Did you ever read the book "A Boy Called It?"
My sister and I were talking the other day about different types of children. My sister has a 4 year old who she does not connect with very well. That is because my sister is about tough love, she rarely cries in public, she is not the feelly type who gets all mushy if that makes sense? She connects beautifully with her other children and her husband connects with her emotional 4 year old which she is grateful for because she worries that he will take her lack of connection over the way he reacts to life as a form of rejection.
Whenever my 4 year old nephew is hurt or crying he always says to my sister "I want Daddy."
My sister pointed out to me that I was a lot like her 4 year old when I was little. I connect beautifully with my little nephew. My sister also pointed out that my aunt, who took care of us when we were abandoned by my mother, had a hard time relating to me because I was so emotional and she, my aunt, was more like my sister. My sister and my aunt got along well.
Then my sister and spoke about the boy in the book - "A Child Called It", she said that she figured that is why he got selected out from his other siblings to be his mothers bad boy, because he was just too emotional for her. His mother was pure N evil.
Strong emotions can really set people off. Just think about how little children and babies crying can enrage parents to hit them or even kill them.
Sad.
Lise
