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do n ever think about us?
« on: December 09, 2007, 03:52:26 PM »
I've been stuck lately dwelling and obsessing over this thing with my sister.  I guess the big question that i have is do n ever
think about us?  I wonder if my n sister ever thinks about me or misses me after being detached for such a long time..? :(
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Re: do n ever think about us?
« Reply #1 on: December 09, 2007, 05:47:15 PM »
Hi Janis,

As far as I can tell, no.

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Re: do n ever think about us?
« Reply #2 on: December 09, 2007, 08:04:30 PM »
I'm afrad I have to go with the No answer also.  And if they tell you they do, don't believe them, its just another trick in the book of Nism.

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Re: do n ever think about us?
« Reply #3 on: December 09, 2007, 08:13:58 PM »
Hi Jan,

Even if/when they DO think about us, does that result in a happy reciprocal relationship?

So honestly...it does not matter whether they think of us or not.

(That would be another thing you can't control, right?)

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Re: do n ever think about us?
« Reply #4 on: December 09, 2007, 08:37:40 PM »
Dear ((( Jan )))

From my own personal experience, alas, no, as my Nsister enjoyed travel far and wide, while I was left alone in the FOG, then the mist.

But, our day arrives, as we become whole, we anchor on solid ground, and then we let go.

While sadly, they remain empty vessels, drifting upon the waves, tossing to and fro.


Upon reflection, it is quite natural to be thinking the thoughts that you have, as back then, they were my thoughts also. 

During this, your initial 'finding out' stage while in trauma/shock and grief, of the finality, of No Contact.

It's not possible to just cut off --- our Nsister can, because N's are empty vessels (poor souls).

We can't just cut-off --- because we are different.

Not in our power to change them, however, we can have serenity to accept the difference.

Presently, you are working through the process, seeking answers, in order to reach an understanding -- which will bring empowerment.   

Love, Leah

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Re: do n ever think about us?
« Reply #5 on: December 10, 2007, 12:52:44 AM »
Leah, I agree and think I have finally reached the no contact stage (it's been 10 weeks). I have often wondered the same thing but I somewhat disagree. I believe that N"s think of us. BUT not in the same way we think or gireve for them. They miss what we gave to them, until someone else comes along and provides it. N's mother once told me, when he is through with someone he banishes them from his life. I should have had more insight because that is exactly what happened. The main thing that keeps me able to maintain no contact, I know if I were to call it would only make him feel more important to me and he would still be cold and cruel.
Jan,  I can feel your pain and only hope it lessens with time.

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Re: do n ever think about us?
« Reply #6 on: December 10, 2007, 03:57:38 AM »
Izzy-

Stream of consciousness- actually quite revelatory and informative at a deep level, though it is a looong sentence!

Love,

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« Reply #7 on: December 10, 2007, 07:22:38 AM »
Agree wholeheartedly with you both Alone and Izzy, regarding the N supply aspect, of the N.

I was simply referring to Nsister's - as in Jan's situation, so I omitted the N supply.

Thinking now about the N supply aspect appertaining to my Nsister, she may have had thoughts of me, thoughts of who is to replace the supply in the previous many many various forms.  However, I do know she had a replacement, already in place.

But in any case, Nsister, certainly won't have had the same thoughts that I had, the same thoughts that Jan has right now.

That's the difference.

'Normal' thoughts versus 'N supply' thoughts!


What's 'normal' thoughts? 

Standard - Average - Usual - Regular - Ordinary    Thoughts that belong to a Non-N!


Empowering reality!

Love, Leah


PS.  Love your very looong sentence, Changing
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Re: do n ever think about us?
« Reply #8 on: December 10, 2007, 07:39:02 AM »
Jan,
I felt so guilty when I stopped having regular contact with NM. And then she never initiated contact with me, so I thought she was angry. And then, when I did talk to her, it was as if she hardly remembered I existed. Now when (the very rare time) she contacts me, it is because someone has mentioned me so she remembers I exist. Most likely they ask how we are and she has no idea. I would venture to say she is absloutely uninterested in my life of the lives of her grandchildren.
Love, Beth
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« Reply #9 on: December 10, 2007, 08:02:34 AM »
Now when (the very rare time) she contacts me, it is because someone has mentioned me so she remembers I exist. Most likely they ask how we are and she has no idea

Dear Beth,

That has struck a real chord with me.  That's why my Ndad phones me up asking certain questions --- it's because someone has asked about his daughter and he would be stumped!  Because he has not taken any interest, he has nothing to respond with, to the enquirer!

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« Reply #10 on: December 10, 2007, 09:23:36 AM »
I have found out that if someone were to ask my sister about me, she immediately goes into her victim role, and goes on and on about how I don't talk to her..and about how badly I treat her.  She never picks up the phone to give me a call to see how things are, because she doesn't care. 
The only time that she ever did pick up the phone to call me was after being at meeting that both her and my father were attending, and her and my father ended up having words, (because she flew into a n rage again...! with him) she ran out of the meeting..  (can you believe this was a CHURCH meeting!)  as soon as she got home she called me and my son answered it without knowing any better... and he handed me the phone, as soon as I got Hello out of my mouth she started screaming....." I hope your happy", I said "what are you talking about?:".... and she replied "You're getting everything you've ever wanted, and I hope you're happy.."..   I replied " please tell me what it is I'm getting that I've ever wanted because you are not making sense.. and I hung up.  That was the last phone call she ever made to me..
Jan

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« Reply #11 on: December 10, 2007, 10:47:03 AM »
Dear ((( Jan )))

Gosh, she sounds like my Nsister  :(    Honestly.

Except, she raged down the phone that she was going to 'finish' me.  The way she worked that threat, truly, reads 'text book' horror.

She and my mother loved 'raging' honestly, and has been their lifelong hobby!  Both have tried to kill a partner, literally.

Was just about to post on Nsister cleverly playing her 'Pity' card, which, looking back, was a most cleverly thought out and deliberated plan --- truly amazing.

Wherein, she attempted to steal my identity ...... but needless to say, she could not keep it up for long.

The truth will always eventually out --- "know them by their fruits" (their behaviour) has a very real life meaning.

All this is painful to endure, however, we can take comfort and solace, in that we are different, for which, personally, I am eternally grateful and thankful.

Sincerely,

Love, Leah


PS   :idea:   it's the 'being' different that creates the problem(s) of which we endure   :idea:

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« Reply #12 on: December 10, 2007, 10:57:29 AM »
Jan, in my experience with my N mother, she does think of me but only when it will result in making her look good - or better. It's never for my sake. I have had to be very careful when responding to any offers from her and not allow the ones that will give her more control or are simply to make her look good to infect me. It's not easy, but I'm getting better at it.

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« Reply #13 on: December 10, 2007, 11:25:40 AM »
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Now when (the very rare time) she contacts me, it is because someone has mentioned me so she remembers I exist. Most likely they ask how we are and she has no idea

Dear Beth,

That has struck a real chord with me.  That's why my Ndad phones me up asking certain questions --- it's because someone has asked about his daughter and he would be stumped!  Because he has not taken any interest, he has nothing to respond with, to the enquirer!

Love, Leah

Yup, same here.  For so long, I was blind to that and baffled by my dad's actions because I always, always, always idealized him and assigned good motives to his behavior.  As I came to grips with the truth I was finally able to actually see how he behaved without assigning positive spins to it, to help him out and excuse him.

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« Reply #14 on: December 10, 2007, 11:34:08 AM »

Jan, in my experience with my N mother, she does think of me but only when it will result in making her look good - or better. It's never for my sake. I have had to be very careful when responding to any offers from her and not allow the ones that will give her more control or are simply to make her look good to infect me. It's not easy, but I'm getting better at it.

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Gosh, ToWrite,

That has struck a might chord.  Drawn back into my Nmother's web of Ntanglement, which had been spun with an hidden agenda.

Which was to enable her to 'superficially' shine -- as sadly, she cannot shine outwardly from within.

Sincerely,

Love, Leah
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