Lynn,
I agree with Portia. You gave your children a huge gift. You sacrificed much to keep their family and home intact. Please explain this to them, and take some time emphasizing how they can make different and better choices in partners, to learn from Your human mistakes. What greater gift can we give them? I feel the depressive tone in your post, the feeling of, will this ever go away?!! All this talk about pain recently on the board. I think we can all learn much from it. These periods are very painful. They are horrible every day. It is a struggle to get through the day. But I have recently learned to look at pain differently. To even respect it and honor it. To surrender to it, if you will. To say, ok pain, you are here, I need to walk with you to get through you. This way of thinking has helped me immensely. If you do this for awhile, perhaps journal your pain, you will see movement through it. Your life will get better and you will learn from it and grow from it. Something that is very obvious by your notes that you want to do. At some point, Lynn, you wonderful MOther who immersed yourself into your children, you will need to take some baby steps toward developing your life and self-worth around something other than your children. Something all of us mothers need to do when our babies leave the nest. A fearful thought, but also very exciting. !!What are you passionate about? Or what do you feel you develop a passion about?
Cplummer CSHF
