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brushing off
« on: December 31, 2007, 04:00:22 PM »
My oldest N sister is dumping middle N sisters life on me. Well sharing all the N garbage with me. I have put the phone down, had to go etc. while still finding a way to tell, share, debug herself of all the foo stuff she hears onto me.
They are both N's.

Middle N got a boyfriend, it has been several years. I have barely NC with her. I already now all about her relationships. Each one is the same because she is not real.
Boring, all you hear about is how much money they make, how beautiful they think she is, on and on and on all about her. Same thing everytime.
Middle sister has lost a lot of weight , is taking pictures down of herself, a lot lol, because she does not want new boyfriend to know. Doesn't want him to know how long since her last relationship etc. Rules she gives for her game. As she is portraying her FALSE IMAGE> I don't care what he knows, I feel bad, deeply if he is a kind person. He will be HURT>

Older sister I know can't stand to listen to other n sis talk all about herself. She actually told me today that she forgot to mention that new boyfriend opened the car door of middle sister to tell her AGAIN how much she means to him. Did I have to hear this much info. Every second every breath they make. NO
This is after I hear he thinks she is so pretty, how lucky he is, people commenting when their out that he has a good catch etc.
Boring, same olde same olde.
He bought her an expensive gift for Xmas.
She (middle sister) knows he wants to tell her he loves her. She can read minds too. lol

Middle sister is a big bragger and believes she has every right to be in your face with how great she is. For example she recently was in a restaurant with siblings, got up took her coat off and said in a loud voice LOOK at ME you haven't seen ME since I lost my last 15 lbs. SHE twirls around in a restaurant with people looking and says have you ever seen such a tiny waist?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I guess my frustration is trying to reduce to little or no contact with oldest is even harder because she wants my ear to share every detail of other sisters life. I think she in  a weird way thinks she is grandiose, if possible for one n to be excited about an other n's life.
I can feel the hyperness from older sister like she has to let this all out, every DETAIL.
Yet quickly gets mad and tears sister apart. I dunno, crazy, the both are.

I have no feelings, I am now at a place where I think the are both ridiculous. I don't feel hurt anymore more embarrassed for them, most of the time I feel like laughing at them, not crying. It's amazing when you know the truth. They can't hurt me like they did, they just irritate me, like a flea.
 
I guess I know the answer  is No CONTACT with both SISTERS=Peace. If not this drama will snow ball, no way, not anymore.
I may drop my land line that way older sis can't call me. :lol:

I do don't what to play in the school yard with them this year. I think that's good a good thing. :)

Thanks for letting shed the foo for the year.

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Re: brushing off
« Reply #1 on: December 31, 2007, 04:03:11 PM »
Dear Seasons,

I think that is a good thing, too!

We dropped our land line over a year ago  :D

Changed email addresses, too  :D  :D

Happy New Year!!

With love,
Carolyn

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Re: brushing off
« Reply #2 on: December 31, 2007, 04:54:04 PM »
Dear Seasons,
  I am so glad that you wrote about your Sisters. You sound like you have made some sound decisions. You sound centered and calm.
I am so happy that you are facing the truth----what doesn't kill you, heals you(lol).
 As bad as any truth is,it is better than lies.
 Thanks for being a great friend. Happy New Year, Seasons.        Love    Ami

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Re: brushing off
« Reply #3 on: December 31, 2007, 07:24:51 PM »
Hi Seasons,
I think you zeroed in on one thing that hits me over and over about the main Ns in my life, present and past...

They are BORING.
Even, after a while, their "charisma" and "drama" and "mysteries" are BORING.

Because once you see them recycle their self-absoprtion so many times, there's just nothing creative, constructive, original or interesting happening with that person, ever.

And I think STRESS + BOREDOM is the worst effect. They still create crises and drama, but in the same old way. So you have all the churned-upness, but no hope of anything creative or original or healing coming out of it.

Arrgh. Better, much better, to be Cinderella.

love
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Re: brushing off
« Reply #4 on: December 31, 2007, 07:31:53 PM »
Hi Seasons,
I think you zeroed in on one thing that hits me over and over about the main Ns in my life, present and past...

They are BORING.
Even, after a while, their "charisma" and "drama" and "mysteries" are BORING.

Because once you see them recycle their self-absoprtion so many times, there's just nothing creative, constructive, original or interesting happening with that person, ever.

And I think STRESS + BOREDOM is the worst effect. They still create crises and drama, but in the same old way. So you have all the churned-upness, but no hope of anything creative or original or healing coming out of it.
Arrgh. Better, much better, to be Cinderella.

love
Hops


Ooooooooo.... I love this, Hops! So very true and so very timely for me... thank you!!

Much love and hugs to you,
Carolyn

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Re: brushing off
« Reply #5 on: December 31, 2007, 07:48:46 PM »

They are BORING.
Even, after a while, their "charisma" and "drama" and "mysteries" are BORING.

Because once you see them recycle their self-absoprtion so many times, there's just nothing creative, constructive, original or interesting happening with that person, ever.

And I think STRESS + BOREDOM is the worst effect. They still create crises and drama, but in the same old way. So you have all the churned-upness, but no hope of anything creative or original or healing coming out of it.

Arrgh. Better, much better, to be Cinderella.

love
Hops


Brilliant Hops

Truly validating.

Because, that's exactly what I sensed with regard to my NDad and his NDaughter phoning/messaging me on my mobile on Dec 25th and 26th.

..... that they were BORED and were in need of some drama.   

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Re: brushing off
« Reply #6 on: December 31, 2007, 11:40:57 PM »



Seasons,

Hi.

I wonder what would happen if you said to the sisters,  I would like to hear from you, but for me to feel good about and be engaged in our conversations, we must find things to talk about that we both enjoy, and gossip about our sister is not something I enjoy.   Probably won't make much difference, but their response might be enlightening and give you a sense of whether they want to include you for you in their calls.

tt

   

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Re: brushing off
« Reply #7 on: January 01, 2008, 12:55:18 AM »
Yes Hops... boring.

As though they depend on those around them to provide the entertainment for them.

Being an entertaining audience is quite boring.

Esp when they like to see people dance like monkeys for fun..... and you're right there in front of them all the time..... being content and available for all the plans they make for you.

Blech. 

And they do like to make plans.

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Re: brushing off
« Reply #8 on: January 01, 2008, 10:43:25 AM »


Thanks for sharing.
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I think that is a good thing, too!

We dropped our land line over a year ago 

Changed email addresses, too   

Happy New Year!!

With love,
Carolyn
  Thats great to hear, good for you. I think this would be a great boundery tool. I've been tossing it around for a while I think it is NOW the TIME to do it.

Wishing you a wonderful New Year Carolyn!  ((seasons))



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What ages are you and sisters? and are just the 2 sisters annoying you?

They are 59 and 57, act like two.   I have two other living siblings, brothers (they have alcahol problems and such so our relationship is very little).

I sense you are all quite young? I am likely wrong!
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Izzy
  :lol: I wish, I am 42 married 21 years next month to a wonderful husband and have three lovely girls. Our home is filled with such blessings...... behoynd our walls is the drama queens.
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Re: brushing off
« Reply #9 on: January 01, 2008, 11:06:15 AM »
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Dear Seasons,
  I am so glad that you wrote about your Sisters. You sound like you have made some sound decisions. You sound centered and calm.
I am so happy that you are facing the truth----what doesn't kill you, heals you(lol).
 As bad as any truth is,it is better than lies.
 Thanks for being a great friend. Happy New Year, Seasons.        Love    Ami

Thanks Ami, I am glad you could hear my calmness. I feel so much better as time has gone by, learning and excepting the truth is very healing. Not perfect but I am a work in progress, making strides I never thought I could make.
Happy New Year to you dear friend. ((seasons))




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Hi Seasons,
I think you zeroed in on one thing that hits me over and over about the main Ns in my life, present and past...

They are BORING.
Even, after a while, their "charisma" and "drama" and "mysteries" are BORING.

Because once you see them recycle their self-absoprtion so many times, there's just nothing creative, constructive, original or interesting happening with that person, ever.

And I think STRESS + BOREDOM is the worst effect. They still create crises and drama, but in the same old way. So you have all the churned-upness, but no hope of anything creative or original or healing coming out of it.

Arrgh. Better, much better, to be Cinderella.

love
Hops

((Hops)) Right on! Yes, Cinderella any day. :) Thank you Hops, your wisdom is always so helpful and insightful. love seaons




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I wonder what would happen if you said to the sisters,  I would like to hear from you, but for me to feel good about and be engaged in our conversations, we must find things to talk about that we both enjoy, and gossip about our sister is not something I enjoy.   Probably won't make much difference, but their response might be enlightening and give you a sense of whether they want to include you for you in their calls.

tt

Thanks tt for mentioning that option. I have a gut feeling middle sister knows I am receiving all these stories about HER and loving it.
I am going to tell oldest sister I don't want to hear anymore about middle sisters drama as it gives me a headache. Wish me luck.
It might not make a difference, but I will feel good. Thank you. Happy New Year love seasons

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Brilliant Hops

Truly validating.

Because, that's exactly what I sensed with regard to my NDad and his NDaughter phoning/messaging me on my mobile on Dec 25th and 26th.

..... that they were BORED and were in need of some drama.   


Love to you,

Leah


   


Ditto Leah.  I want to thank you I have received great wisdom and health from you. I am very thankful for you. Wishing you a very Happy New Year.
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Yes Hops... boring.

As though they depend on those around them to provide the entertainment for them.

Being an entertaining audience is quite boring.

Esp when they like to see people dance like monkeys for fun..... and you're right there in front of them all the time..... being content and available for all the plans they make for you.

Blech. 

And they do like to make plans.
 

Hi Lighter, said perfectly. It's amazing how the are so predictable. Blech......

Happy New Year Lighter! ((seasons))
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Re: brushing off
« Reply #10 on: January 01, 2008, 11:21:53 AM »
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Doesn't sound like there is much in the way of a healthy sibling interaction going on...

Did your parents pit you one against the other? Is that where the separation began? Do you share any closeness at all?

If the relationship is pointless, I would say, let it go. I know that is hard - especially as siblings are different from all other people you have known.

I wish you strength and courage, seasons.

Love, Beth
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Re: brushing off
« Reply #11 on: January 01, 2008, 11:24:39 AM »
Hops,
How very on the mark...
I know my mother is missing the fact that she can no longer cause rifts between my sister and I now that we talk a lot. She still tries, but it doesn't work. I was stunned when I realized that was what was happening.
You are so right - stir the pot when in gets dull. How insightful of you.
Thanks (((((((((((hops))))))))
Love, Beth
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Re: brushing off
« Reply #12 on: January 02, 2008, 09:06:48 AM »
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Doesn't sound like there is much in the way of a healthy sibling interaction going on...

Did your parents pit you one against the other? Is that where the separation began? Do you share any closeness at all?

If the relationship is pointless, I would say, let it go. I know that is hard - especially as siblings are different from all other people you have known.

I wish you strength and courage, seasons.

Love, Beth

Thank you so much ((Beth))

No my parents where my safe spot. I was myself only with them. With my siblings I went into psychological fetal position, praying for safety. I was the target, how I felt. I kinda felt like an only child because my siblings were off and married or not at home.

There was never any REAL connection. My sisters have used me and I thought we had a connection, coming here years later I realize I was used, I was a source of supply for them.

I don't know if I could call it closeness with my oldest sister. I am physically there but my heart has been off limits for a long time.
 She is easier than my middle raging N if I had to compare the two.

Yesterday I did talk to her (oldest N) about my middle sister, asked her to stop talking about her to me. I told her I believe our sister is has NPD. She was very curious and wants me to share with her about it.
She is one too.
Kinda funny. I am interested in her response, as she said she is getting tired of hearing all about other sister, new boyfriend, wedding,
what she's gonna where, stair cases she will enter from, petals flowing all around her... etc............... on and on ............................. Yawn.

Beth your sister is your safe place?

 Wishing you a blessed New Year.  ((seasons))
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Re: brushing off
« Reply #13 on: January 02, 2008, 12:19:44 PM »
Dear Seasons,
  I am so glad that you are sharing deep issues which have been painful and unresolved ,for you. You seem to be getting better as you face them and people share their experience with you.
 I am really happy that you got on this "track" b/c you can go forward with whatever issues are  painful and come to a peace.  Love to You    Ami
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