Fear of People

[Ami]

I realize from feeling the "numbness" from  losing Scott ,that I "have " been numb since my teens, when I remember the moment I got "numb".
 So, I have been living with "numbness". I had no idea how to get out of it.
 My friend taught me to look within when you are hurting NOT to run away, which I always did.
 My stomach is so much better ( and I have gained some weight) b/c I looked within, when it hurt and tried to see what was causing the pain.
  I see that it was fear of my own power and fear of setting boundaries. Both things must were  met by rage by  my M.
 So, now I have to work on  fear of people. What a can of worms this will be(lol).
 I have inklings of what the problem is,but not the whole picture. I know that I am afraid of anger, rage, disapproval, rejection,humiliation,etc.
 Now, I will start to really look within and try to face the roots of this fear.
If anyone has "been there, done that OR is STILL  there (lol), I would love to hear your experience.
                                                                                               Ami

[Gabben]

Hi Ami,

Yes, I understand fear well. It IS the deepest root!

Have you ever really made a list of all of your fears and then ask yourself why you have the fears?

Fear generates more fear because deep down we know that we are limited which leads us to make descions based on self or selfish motives, out of fear, which generates more fear because our bodies or minds anticpate our mistakes or faliures.

Does that make sense?


Here are the 4th step worksheets (for fear) that I use in AA attached.

((((((((((AMI))))))))))

Love ya,
Lise

   

[Ami]

Thanks,Lise.
I will download them.