I realize from feeling the "numbness" from losing Scott ,that I "have " been numb since my teens, when I remember the moment I got "numb".
So, I have been living with "numbness". I had no idea how to get out of it.
My friend taught me to look within when you are hurting NOT to run away, which I always did.
My stomach is so much better ( and I have gained some weight) b/c I looked within, when it hurt and tried to see what was causing the pain.
I see that it was fear of my own power and fear of setting boundaries. Both things must were met by rage by my M.
So, now I have to work on fear of people. What a can of worms this will be(lol).
I have inklings of what the problem is,but not the whole picture. I know that I am afraid of anger, rage, disapproval, rejection,humiliation,etc.
Now, I will start to really look within and try to face the roots of this fear.
If anyone has "been there, done that OR is STILL there (lol), I would love to hear your experience.
Ami