I'm going to delete my membership again, I feel like this place also the eharmony thing have begun to take over the last few days, and I don't like that compulsive side of me.
Don't think the eharmony is working actually, the profile is excellent, very accurate, but other settings don't seem to come up with good matches, people with clearly nothing in common in areas I have specified as important.It also makes me feel a bit like I am blowing perfectly good people off because they aren't 'perfect' and soemthing still doesn't feel quite right. It has taught me how to look at the person before giving in to attraction, it has taught me what to look for, what to ask. But it still hasn't recovered that sense of fun about the whole thing, I still feel too serious and just waiting for an abusive or potentially abusive scenario...maybe I have to stop trying to do love relationships, for now anyway, clearly they are not my thing.
Take care everyone, much love to all and I'll come back in a few months, in the summer when my busy life calms down a bit and i've got a grip on the computer use again.
Love
~Write
