ReallyMe's thread really hurt me (she was baiting me)

[Certain Hope]

I think this thread is about to drown in sarcasm.

[Amused]

I think RM and Gabben are the same person.  Oh, the drama.   

[reallyME]

no, Gabben (Lise) and I (Laura, RM) are NOT the same person.

i am 41, have 4 children and am married to an N.  I'm a Holy SPirit filled born again Christian, who has not sufferered horrendous years of child abuse such as Lise unfortunately has.

I do not take other names on here.  What you see is what you get, all except for one time when I did during an attack by people on this board.  That was the ONLY TIME I took another nic.

~Laura

[Gaining Strength]

Don't ask me why I'm jumping into this and all the other frays lately, I don't know.  But here I go.

This is my analysis:  Gabben is very sensitive.  Which is not to say over-sensitive.  I don't believe there is such think as over-sensitive.  Sensitivity can be, in part, a reflection of the extend of pain a person has endured. 

RM is not particularly sensitive which is not to say that she does not hurt.  She clearly has experienced significant hurt by people in the past but RM seems to be less sensitive to other's pain or sensitivity. 

Gabben's sensitivity and RM's relatively low-level of sensitivity (empathy) makes for a ticking bomb.  This is an example of the types of things that we often experience in 3-D world.  Neither of you can really understand the other and it can become quite explosive.

That's my analysis.  Hope it doesn't hurt either of you.  It is not intended to.  It is intended to be clarifying.

[Gabben]

Don't ask me why I'm jumping into this and all the other frays lately, I don't know.  But here I go.

It is not intended to.  It is intended to be clarifying.

Hi GS -- Thanks for the input. Yes, I'm very sensitive because (read my previous posts).

Also, a huge festering ugly wound is working it's way out of me these days. The wound is filled with hatred, contempt, bitterness, rage.

The wound is ugly, crazy, mean and bleeding and icky.

Contempt breeds contempt, humbling for me. Now I have to practice sowing what I want to reap, which is love. God will transform my heart.

One thing that occurred to me is that I will criticize others, under guise,which is a hiding place of shame and contempt, in order to undo or magical thinking, make my shame and hurt disappear.


Lise

[Gaining Strength]

I do understand GAbben.  I am glad that you are experiencing that healing.  I know how painful everything is when you are in the place of extreme sensitivity.  I have been there.  It does all circle in on you until you can get enough space from the pain to get a perspective.  it is a very difficult place to be.  I am so glad you are getting some healing.

[Ami]

((((((((((((Gs, Lise)))))))))))))

[reallyME]

I was under the impression that Lise and I had concluded the "fray" so why is it necessary to bring it up and assume how sensitive either of us are.

as you can see by now, my sensitivity generally comes across not in "please feel sorry for me" but in ANGER.

[Ami]

(((((((((((Laura))))))))))))