What do you mean you went in and corrected it yourself, Kelly?
I realize, as I heal, that I punish myself with food. I over or undereat as a way to deal with my belief system that I am worthless and should be punished. Food is the object I use to effect this punishment on myself.
I think I saw that I don't need to punish myself anymore. I hope so.
I was doing it so I could reinforce(subconsciously) the belief that I was "bad", worthless and then I would not have cognitive dissonance, which happens when you cannot put new beliefs over old ones.
You have to change the old ones or reject the new ones, but the two will NOT exist ,together. Our minds cannot allow it.
I am thinking that you may be using food in the same way. Compost what does not fit.
I hope all goes well with the lap band.
Understanding some of the roots of food issues is important(IMO), no matter what our actual weight is. I still have food issues and I am at my ideal weight,now.
The food issues are emotional, not about food itself(IME) Love Ami