Thinking of you catspaw...

[bean as guest]

I think it has more to do with the feeling I get that you and lighter go round in circles here on the board, without saying a whole lot.  Also, the constant need you have of getting others' attention it seems.  I get an uneasy feeling about the whole idea of playing with people's emotions here.  I've seen it done as I've been here long enough.  I don't participate and I don't condone it.

It hurts people when others make jokes at their expense.  That's what I feel is inappropriate.

peace

bean

[cats paw]

besee,

  Thank you, and I very much hear and appreciate what you're saying.

hugs to you, too

cats paw

[cats paw]

Hello All -

  I need to return to this thread.  The time is passing quickly, and as I stated my mom's birthday is in May.

  Thanks to the people who were so supportive on this and other threads.

   Besee- that is a really good way of putting it about your mom's energy being so different.  So was my mom's.

   She also said she saw my stepdad two days before she died, and she was not given to that type of experience.  Perhaps it was
   only brain chemicals as they say, but perhaps not.  It was a wonderful thought, no matter what the origin.

    Will write again soon regarding the mid May memorial.

cats paw

[cats paw]

   I don't know why this is so hard to get out all at once. 

   My mom's last words were -  It's so beautiful.

cp

[finding peace]

(((((((((Dear Cats Paw))))))))

It is hard; so many emotions at once.

My father was in a coma for 24+ hours before he died.  The moment before he died, he came out of the coma, looked at each of us, and then beyond us, as though someone was there.  The most peaceful look came across his face and he started to lift his head and shoulders off the bed as though he had somewhere to go; within moments he was gone.  It was a beautiful moment.  I forgot that moment in the midst of everything else that had gone on those last few months.  Thank you for reminding me.

As we discussed via PM (to everyone here - I wanted to make sure Cats Paw was ok with this before I posted it), I have an image of a fire that we can use.  I would be honored to stand vigil with you until that one special evening when the fire will burn no more.  And thank you for allowing me to share in the imagery for my father; symbolism, imagery, and metaphors have been very powerful tools that have helped me to reframe the past.

I will start a new thread tomorrow.

Peace