Dear Ann and Kim,
Thank you for caring. I can "feel" it in the posts.
I feel a little better for the moment. My friend said to just let the anger go by. I was getting messed up by feeling guilty. I feel guilty to be angry at my H. I know it sounds sick to say this, but I do. He did do good things over the years and I kinow ,intellectually, that he cannot help being an N, BUT my body is angry, super, super angry.
My friend said that I have to be selfish,now, to heal and honor my own life, not worry about my H and "hurting" him.
That is right. I know my H did not mean to hurt Scott or anyone BUT he ,still, does nor know how to be different and would hurt people again, me included, if I let up on my strength.
Dear Izzy,
I can't answer all those questions. It is just too much to go over. Ami