--after I left but before I knew he was an N
I was driving back from Terry's today and this is what occurred to me, after
having a pleasant non-angry filled morning, as have been my other days with
'good' people. I think it would be nice if we could remain friends but
thinking on this, which I feel to be true, I wonder--
--In the aftermath of dealing with your alcoholism and emotional abuse I’m finding
the recovery process is not as slow and painful as I expected but I must
remember that since I was a target I have been only the latest in a long
line of people onto whom you had to displace your aggression. You will
probably do this throughout your life. Sad to say, 'psychopaths' often spend
their last years alone, sometimes plagued by regret for what they never knew
they were missing until it was too late. I have seen/heard about your
pattern and I empathize with your disease but it can't be overcome. I feel
that a closer examination of childhood will reveal the beginnings.
Emotional security has eluded you all these years. You’ve always tried to
get it from others. It is something you must find from within—because inside
you is that thin border between imagination and insanity
