feeling the heat

[sKePTiKal]

It is stranger than fiction, how we can come from two opposite ends of an issue to the center!

It is very scary, to find out that people AREN'T going to take you task for being totally absolutely perfect in every way - and that they still like you, on top of it! It's scary to realize that as awful as our FOOs are/were... that the rest of the world doesn't think like that. But after awhile, it starts to feel really, really good...

Thanks for the tip on sitting through the craving; I'm sure I'll have a chance to try it!   

But, I think this quit is going to be pretty easy; my body is already helping by developing a really strong aversion to smoking - or the smell of someone else smoking. The last one I smoked made as dizzy as if it were the first one. Something really powerful is at work; something as powerful as what has kept me from quitting, I think.

[seasons]

((Iphi))

Your work on this thread is breathtaking.

Please share more, your voice is beautiful. 

I feel the walls of lies crumbling down for you. love seasons

[Leah]

((( Iphi )))

Yes, indeed, your voice is beautiful and clear on this thread, of which, as Seasons has so clearly expressed -- is breathtaking.

Love, Leah

[Ami]

Dear Iphi
 You mentioned that it was hard to show how imperfect you were. It is so funny, but you seem so much more "real", defined and 3D in this thread than I have ever seen. I noticed it after you said about the "imperfect" thing.
 I need to see that I am trying to control my inside fears of shame and rejection by trying to be perfect.
 It is such a deep, unconscious pattern when you have N parents.
 You are so beautiful as an "imperfect "person, as we all are--bleh, but it is so hard to move in to "imperfection". of course. Perfectionsim is a lie, but the fear of letting"go",which is UNDER it, is very real.    Love  Ami

((((((((Iphi)))))))))

[Leah]

I only know one person who is perfect.

His name is Jesus Christ.

The truth.

Love, Leah