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Emotional Divorce
genuine:
Dear bunny,
--- Quote from: bunny ---genuine, what your mother did reminds me of a war criminal. She should be tried at Nuremburg. Since that option isn't available, I hope there is some way to console yourself for your great loss. I once read, years ago, in a somewhat "pagan" newsletter (and I'm not Pagan) that unborn babies have "baby-being" spirits who decide whether to be born this particular time or not.
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Thanks for that, I had a nice chuckle :) and also for the pagan info. I am not pagan myself either but I like to incorporate beliefs from different systems and make them my own. A lovely lady from the U.S. was compelled to offer me a free medium reading and this is what she had to say about it:
genuine, my heart goes out to you. I believe that this little soul, understood the possibilities of not coming into the physical. This feels like a male to me...this was part of your growth. I am getting the feeling that this was just not meant to be and that there would have been problems with this baby had it survived. It feels a bit toxic...don't know if you can verify that in any way.
I don't usually do this, but I really feel like I want to help you. There is no guilt on your part..you must stop torturing yourself. This soul feels very much like a helper to you, who loves you very much and this lesson was more for you and your growth. Take control..don't be afraid to be a master of your life..do not let guilt run you. You did what is right for you and the best for the child. This child feels like it will be a part of your life again...5 years is what I hear. So, please take heart, be in joy, there are no victims, we all make our choices including that little soul who choose to be light to you.
Things happen to shake up our world sometimes..these shake ups seems to set us off in an entirely different direction and your little angel did what was necessary for your growth. God loves all..without judgement so stop doing yourself harm with worry and guilt. Just stop for it is zapping your strength and you were not meant to be in fear, but in love.
Choose LOVE. Love for yourself. Do the angel proud and receive the gift he gave with gratitude. Live well. Live well. That is what you do with all of this. Love yourself and live well.
Best of luck..blessings to you!
Love, Liz
The fetus was a male (I had the sex confirmed) and yes things would have been toxic because my ex boyfriend abandoned me and he is just bad news. He now has children by other women. Spreading his seed lol
All I know is that this helped lift a load off my shoulders.
Thanks for your support
genuine
Anonymous:
About the Con-Artist thing, well, guess what, folks? There is justice in this world afterall because my Nparents were duped themselves by a real talented con-artist, which nearly bancrupted them and lead to divorce. The only reason divorce did not take place was because there was so little left after the con, that it was easier to stay together.
This major turning point lead to a series of events which i had hoped would turn their lives around, and to make them for once appreciate what they had instead of feeding their greed for more more more!!! But my wishful thinking had no effect on reality. They suffered a great loss of money and loss of their dreams of easy retirement--their ultimate goal and purpose in life!! They used guilt on all the children, making us so miserable, and tried to drive us into worshipping and making more money. They tried to get a high return on investment through children. Non of us children, as adults, are making loads of money. I dont even try because i like having just what i need, no more, no less.
And so now, Nmother has had to work for the rest of her life until she is able to collect a pension (who knows what that will be worth and if it will be enough for her), supporting a retired penniless N-supplier father who gets angry every time she spends anything other than groceries. Nmother has continuously run into problems with colleagues and has had lawsuits against her supervisors. They once had the taste of the sweet life back in the 1980's, but its been all downhill since then.
Before i found out about N, i tried to help emotionally and financially, but couldn't stand the manipulations and lies. Time to give up!!
Ellie, i am going to use the same explanation as to why i do not speak to my parents or family. They are all con-artists and very dangerous.
Also, i too was in college when i realized how bad my parents were treating me. I still remember the look on my girlfriend's face when she said to me, "you mean, they don't call you, ever?" and "you mean they don't give you any money or allowance of any kind?" That was a big clue alright. No wonder they never allowed me to talk on the phone, or to bring any friends over to the house throughout my entire childhood. It all makes sense now.
Genuine, i like your idea about blowing up the baby photo. I did that a long time ago, and i look at it often. Its my favorite photo alright. So cute. Thanks for sharing your pagan newsletter story. Its nice!!
Oh, and anytime someone calls you a "slut," you will know deep down that they are not talking about you because they don't really know you anyway. And anyway, what is so bad about being a slut? could be a good thing too. it could mean you are sexy, seductive, attractive. you can do the translated meaning in your head and give the insulter a devilish smile.
:wink:
ch:
That was me, just now.
CH
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