sixth period

[Lupita]

Today was award ceremony at school. Teachers give diplomas to students that escelled in something. I gave diplomas to those students who through their attitud and behavior, and actions and words, strechten my faith in Jesus, and there were many of them.
Nobody from sixth piriod. They were all surprised. How can they imagine that after making my life miserable for one whole year I will reward them? No way Jose. I rewarded those who were good. Many of them were good.

Thank you for listening.

[seasons]

Lupita,

Glad sixth period is over for you. What a year? Your still intact and stronger. 


 

I gave diplomas to those students who through their attitud and behavior, and actions and words, strechten my faith in Jesus, and there were many of them.

They must of felt so happy to be recognised by you. I'm glad you had many that were good students. Hope they over shadows the
the sixth period class for you.

 Enjoy your summer, you deserve it! seasons

[Lupita]

Yes Seasons, thank you. Almost over, but not yet. Two more weeks. I finish next week on Friday, that will be the last day. And I promise that I will enjoy my summer.

Love to you.

[Lupita]

But I said that to commit to academic excellence is easy and that I had many students with good grades, but to commit to an excellet attitude is much more difficult and that is why I wanted to reward people with a god attitude and I said that people closer to god are more hukble not arrogant, more receptibe not judgemental, and give you peace and not discomfort. Then I proceeded to call students, good students, and then I said you have to decide if you want to be host of God or hostage of your ego since if you work for your ego you would work endelessly and never have any satisfaction.

I felt wonderful.

Probably some teachers will hate me for that but I made my statement. I did not rewanrd the daughter a the English teacher, nor son of cauncelor of son or secretary or daghter of secretary or son of librarian. So, I besidaclly told them that I believe they are not good Christians. Hope that they got the message.

I do belive they are bad people and hypocritic hypochristians. I know, I am being jusgemental, but I earned the right to call them that bcause they have showed me such a bad side of their personality.

[Lupita]

semester exams started today. I feel so sad, such a failure, but I know it is their technique, they make you feel a failure so they can enslave you. It is the way the private secotr works. I feel so much rejection, so much shame, so much unwelcome!!! How can I go get another job? My selfesteem is down in the negative minus number, let us see, hmm, maybe -24.
I feel dirty looks everywhere, I knoiw it is not possible that everybody dislike me, I know that, but I still feel it that way, no matter what the reality is, I feel awfle.

I need so much a friend!!!!!!!!!

[Gaining Strength]

My heart aches for you Lupita.  I am so sorry for what you have been through.  It has been horrible!  I am so glad that you  will never again have to be with those children of 6th period nor with those adults in the administration who refused to stand behind you.  I hear you say that you fear that noone will hire you.  I imagine that that fear is unbearable. 

In spite of all the abuse you have taken this year you ARE a wonderful teacher and you have had good experiences with your other classes.  Don't lose sight of those students who have valued your gifts.  Noone should have to endure what you have been through.  It would take a toll on anyone.  I am glad you are free from the horrors of this place and I pray that you will find a place of work where you feel supported, sustained, encouraged and valued.

My heart is with you - sending much love. - Shame Slayer

[sKePTiKal]

Lupita - if these feelings are coming from other people at school: just look yourself in the face in the mirror and tell yourself they're just jealous, envious and trying to put you down to feel better about themselves: because you're kind, patient, smart, organized, and you are going to find yourself the PERFECT job...

this place just isn't good enough for you, Lupita. They don't deserve you. And wonderful places and people are out there waiting for someone just like you...

[debkor]

Lup,

You know my problems with my son.  Oh please, the teachers are not responsible for his failures, he is.  They have done all they can.  It's up to him.  I have never held teachers  responsible for *his actions* or expected to give him something he did not deserve. And I would have been pissed if they did. 

You did those kids a favor.  You taught them that you work for what they want and will not be handed things they do not deserve.
Something their parents fail to do. I think you may have made a difference in their thinking.   

You may  not see it now or ever but you may have changed someone in years to come.

By the way, My son brought up all his grades in progress report, except Math.  Still struggling with that. 


Love
Deb

[Lupita]

Same students who trashed my class four times, I asked ofr help, I begged for help, they accused me of no likeing to teach. They accused me of no being a good teacher. Same students stold exams from another teacher. They got desciplined immediately, called to the office and parents were called.

What do I have that when I have a problem nobody wants to help, and if another teacher complains they immediately take care of it.

What am I doing wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 :

I told that mother that her child was being bad to me and she started making a thousands of excuses and di dnot want to disciplione him.

I went to the office and said to everybody, I am so happy!!!!

not true, I am not happy, I am sorry that the child is in distress, I am sorry that the librarian, the mother is in distress, but I just wanted to make them feel bad.

I know that telling them that I am happy when they are suffering will not make them like me.
YOU DO NOT REMEDY A RELATIONSHIP BY AONDEMNING IT.
sTILL, i feel so bad, so sad, such a failure.

I know the truth, I do not feel the truth.

 

[Lupita]

You do not remedy a relationship by condemning it.

You do not fix a problem by hating people because they hate you. So hating them back will not make it better.

[sKePTiKal]

Get that resume started...

now is when the school jobs start getting posted! You deserve better treatment than this... save some energy to find it!

[Lupita]

Thank you Deb, it is so nice that your son is getting better at school. But again, it is abstract thinking, Math, he needs extra help to develop different paths of thinking process. That can be done. It happened to me too. I am better in abstract thinking due to many exercises.

Thank you SS and PR, thank you so much for your best wishes.

What a coinceidence!!!!!  I have problems with the sun of the librairan, with the son of the councelor, with the daughter of a secretary and the son of another secretary.

The students who are there paying for their education do not give me problems.

How do you interpret that?

HMMmmmmm!!!!

[Lupita]

I know it. Just cant do it. You do not remedy a relationship by condemning it.

YOu do not make it better by hating somebody because they hate you.

Just cant do it. I am being cognitive inflexible. I know the truth but cant internalize it.

So sad.

God will help me find another job.

[Hopalong]

God will help you HELP YOURSELF find another job
Please don't wait for a miracle.
Make one.

I believe you are a fantastic teacher in the wrong school.

love,
Hops

[lighter]

You're human and you've been treated badly for so long.... it's hard to change the way that's made you feel inside.

I wish there was some magic wand that could be waved.... to help you internalize the truth.

Your feelings aren't right or wrong.... they just are.

Remember.... all the people who've been unkind to you.... have their own struggles.

They aren't the way they are bc they were treated well all their lives.

I'm with Hops.... please pray to God that he helps you help yourself....

with the job, internalizing your thoughts and forgiving those who do harm to you.

Lighter