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Lupita

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Re: GFM
« Reply #60 on: May 27, 2008, 05:12:33 PM »
And I am going to seriously think about the hypnosis and the book and everything I can do to improve. I cannot live like that. Everytim I have to interact with GFM I am dyeing. That cant be. I have to take care of this feelings.

Besides it could be GFM or somebody else. It does not have to be GFM. It is GFM on this ocasion.

End of the year, lots of work, problems at work, they dispise me at work, my son abandoning me and siding with GFM, debt to several creditors, hospital bills that I have not paid, having to look for a new job, moeny problems, slaped in the face ny another friend, and so many things that have happened to me, not to mention that I had a car accident on March and still suffering consequences of that.

A friend told me that I can respond to one stressor very well but when I have several stressors at the same time I explode.

That is what has happened this weekend and having to fake all the time is killing me.

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« Reply #61 on: May 27, 2008, 05:14:04 PM »
Hi Hop, I called the person from the website. The person did not answer. I left my phone number for him to call me when ever he can. Hope that his works out.

It would be nice of you can write more extensively about the hypnosis process.

Thanks

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« Reply #62 on: May 27, 2008, 06:13:07 PM »
Hi Lupita,
I don't have the energy to narrate much right now but this is a good overview and recommends an on-target book about it too:
http://www.wikihow.com/Perform-Self-Hypnosis

I can tell you this. When I participate in the process of hypnosis either alone or with a trusted therapist, I experience a deep, deep feeling of safety and deep, deep healing and respect for my deepest self.

It is a very loving and healing process. I hope it helps.

And good for you for going after what you need. Simply addressing stress, which hypnosis is wonderful for, will be such a help to you. But you can use it for any positive change to your mind.

love,
Hops
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« Reply #63 on: May 27, 2008, 06:35:44 PM »


That is what has happened this weekend and having to fake all the time is killing me.

That's why I don't believe in the adage "fake it till you make it"

because in essence .... in reality, that's a kind of illusion or self-deception -- and does more harm than truth of where one is really at.


Hypnosis can birth "Avoidance" ....... I say this because I watched my friend slide downhill during and after engaging in the process of hypnosis, though at the time I had no knowledge of the subject.

My friend would just go into a trance like state ......... which culminated in a condition of tiredness and fatigue ......... and dissociation.

She only wanted to give up smoking!! She was fine previously!


Please be careful Lupita, with regard to entering into Self-Hypnosis ......... especially, as you are not with a Therapist at present, so you would be all on your own with the process etc.

Love,

Leah


PS.  I just read your other thread and I am so glad that you found yesterday's link helpful ...  http://en.bibleinfo.com/topics/topic.html?id=11   

I have printed a copy and pinned it to my kitchen notice board.

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« Reply #64 on: May 27, 2008, 08:43:50 PM »
Lupita,
You know better than to rely on anecdotal evidence or conjecture.

I am sure the book will help you in your decision.

love,
Hops
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« Reply #65 on: May 28, 2008, 07:17:16 PM »
Hey Hop, Thanks. I will start going to a group next Monday from 6:30 PM to 8:00 PM on meditation and stress reduction for a donnation  only. I plan to give aproximately ten dollars. I guess that would be appropriate. I do not know.

Also, the councelor that contacted me with this group accepted to see me one time for $50.00 and maybe one more. He said that when I live his office I will have CDs and books to work and he said that he charges $225.00 per session but I will pay 50 for one time and he said that maybe he will see me once more just to get me started. Then we will go from there. He does not want to work for that amount. He just will get me strated one or two sessions plus CDs and books plus contact me with this group for meditaion and stress reduction.

That is something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well.......... Thank you Hopsy Wopsy!!!!!!    :)

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« Reply #66 on: May 28, 2008, 08:25:03 PM »
Oh thanks goodness..... you found something.

So glad, Lupita.

Lighter

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« Reply #67 on: May 29, 2008, 09:40:34 AM »
You are so welcome (((((((((((((Lupita))))))))))))).

So so so proud of you.

lots of love,
Hops
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« Reply #68 on: June 03, 2008, 05:57:37 AM »
Another thread that has come to an end.

Went to that councelor that agree to see me once for $50.00 and get me started in the program of stress reduction. It was the day of my son graduation recital. I got there very ungry and sad. After one hour of crying, whyning, complaining in front of him, he said:

"Your mother died today. You do not have a mother."

When I protested, he said, why do you still want to be connected to your mother?

I did not know how to answer.

Then we did one meditation session and gave me CDs  that by the way they are very good. You really really relax by guided meditation. And since I am a beguiner, I cannot do anything but guided.

Then he gave me the refference of another place where they can help me regularly for $25.00 which is affordable for me. I called them and they will see me on june 24.

Then he gave me an e mail of a meditation instructor who works with groups for a donation. That is on Mondays and I started yesterday. I liked it a lot.

When I left his office I was smiling for the first time in a long long time. I enjoyed my son's concert. For the first time the constant pain stopped for a few hours.

My son got many applauses and when he finished playing he said that his mother was the bigest inspiration for him and pointed towards me. Everybody yelled and applauded. I was about to cry, but felt so good that I did not.

This thread has come to an end too. GF broke up with my son. What a coincidence that I do not have a job and my son does not have a girlfriend. But, he does not know what kind of a problem he has gotten rid off.
He is devastated, but I believe that he is better with out her. She is transfering from a community college to the University where my son is going to strat his PHD. He went from a bachelor degree to a PHD program. He is only 22 and got a job in research at the cancer hospital, pays very little but it will look great in his resume. She thinks that she is going to have a thousand men lining up to court her at the university, or so I think. She has no idea how difficult is to get a good man, devoted to Christ, with a clear mind and honest, plus, college graduated, entering a PHD.

When my son lost his car, problems strated. She hadto drive instead of him, and she does not like to do things for others, she acostumed to being served since her mother does everything for her.

I am a little sad, my son blames me a little for the problem, but I was only part of the problem not the problem.

In the long run, this is good for him. I pray everyday that he finds a woman hones, woth clear mind, centered, who has insight and a good education, and faith in God, and For Crist Sakes, Somebody who wants to be friends with me!

Although I have hopes that they do not get back together, it is probable that they will. But he will know that she is capable to cut him off at her convenience, everytime that she things she can get something better, hopefully, at this point he has found out that they are not right ofr each other.

I told him, next time, do not introduce her to me until you have a serious relationship with prospective marriage, I do not want to be involved in the drama od poppy love. It made me very stressed. And  the GFM almost killed me.






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« Reply #69 on: June 03, 2008, 06:09:40 AM »


Dear (((((((((( Lupita ))))))))))))

I sit here with eyes filled up with tears, of joy, for you, and for prayers that HAVE been answered - God has heard your prayers and they have been, are being, answered.


And just thinking of your new counsellor's words;

"Your mother died today. You do not have a mother."

When I protested, he said, why do you still want to be connected to your mother?



Those words have such a big impact - and they are so true!   It is in the DETACHING that one becomes truly FREE.   In my own mother experience.


I have much work to do at present - will post again later on.

Thinking of you.

God Bless You.

Love, Leah
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« Reply #70 on: June 03, 2008, 12:38:28 PM »
What a shock to hear those words.....

"You have no mother.... your mother died today."

In your heart.... I think they need to be true so you can free yourself from your FOO.

Very interesting way for the T to approach that concept.

I'm so glad you felt some relief from the pain..... it really is possible to escape, Lupe.

2 steps forward.... 1 step back.

As for GF and your son..... that may not be over yet, so don't get your heart set on it.

Let us know what your meditation looks like..... are you walking down 1000 white steps to the beach or some other excercise like that?

Lighter

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« Reply #71 on: June 03, 2008, 01:04:53 PM »
Hi Lea and Lighter, thank you so much for your empathy. That is empathy. When you feel sorry for the suffering of others and you feel happy for the imprvemnet of others.

Difficult to experience when you do not recieve it almost all your life.

Thank you for your words of encouragement.

About the meditation, I am going to start a thread on that. Thank you foe asking.

Love to you all.

Hopalong, your actions are giving results. Thanks! I enjoyed my son's concert, it was like God created it that way so I could enjoy my son's concert, for the first time in a long time I was smiling.

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« Reply #72 on: June 03, 2008, 03:33:49 PM »
Lupita, remember to have empathy for your son.  As you talk to him try to imagine what it is like to be him.  I know you are relieved that GF is gone but you wrote that he is devastated.  As you talk to him about his situation, keep in mind that his heart is broken and that he feels vulnerable because of it and that he might be mindful that you do not hurt for him.

I told him, next time, do not introduce her to me until you have a serious relationship with prospective marriage, I do not want to be involved in the drama od poppy love. It made me very stressed. And  the GFM almost killed me.

My heart is always with you and it is out of my concern for you and your interest in having a close relationship with your son that I point out that when you refer to his girlfriends and loving relationships be careful about the words you chose.  "Puppy love" has a little edge to it.  It could be perceived as demeaning and I know you don't want to belittle your son.  Remember that while he is your little boy he has become a young man.  Even though GF and GFM made your life miserable, in order to strengthen your relationship with your son you must keep your criticism of his girlfriends to yourself or share them here with your friends but do your best to not share them with him.  It will tend to push him away.

I say this out of love and concern for your and your love of your son.

your friend - shame slayer