Where is my voice ?

[Anonymous]

Just got off the phone from N dad who is married to BP mum.

I want to break this relationship so badly.

Ended up screaming and acting like a completly crazy person.  In responce to my dads hooks of crying and understanding without understanding and crying only for himself.

God I hate it when my dad crys.  He cries for his whole life of crap.

My dad asked me if I wanted to end our daughter/father relationship I so badly wanted to scream 'yes, your driving me crazy.

Why couldnt I do it ?

Ended up with me saying I need my space.  I can't forgive you for your recent behaviours.  I don't know if I ever can.    

God I pray give me strength to break this cycle of abuse for my daughters sake.

Getting better at looking after my feelings bit by bit.

[bunny]

Ended up screaming and acting like a completley crazy person.  In responce to my dads hooks of crying and understanding without understanding and crying only for himself.

Ns and BPs can make others go crazy and hysterical. The level of frustration in dealing with them is off the scale.

My feeling is that you may need strategies to deal with this manipulative individual. My strategy would be: if he starts crying, I would say, "I have to hang up now. We can continue this another time when you're calm. I will no longer have conversations with you where you're crying. Goodbye." and hang up. This is a boundary.

bunny