Author Topic: Greener Pastures  (Read 4494 times)

phoenix

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« on: August 26, 2004, 10:18:41 AM »
Seeker, DG, BlueTopaz,

I am done here. I have erased all my posts- except for one.
And I think "Someone" is being very clever by signing off for good - just as I do. Oh well don't care, it's like after you are dead, who cares what people say or think.

Don't think I am being run off the board- I just am not that attached to it. I erased my posts for personal reasons.

I wish I could know you all under different circumstances. Like as a next door neighbor. Thank you for the things you shared with me.

DG , keep having yourself heard,even if you don't think others are listening. They are. You made a big impact on me.

Take care all, Phoenix

Hugs to you HUG&C, whoever you are!

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« Reply #1 on: August 26, 2004, 11:50:24 AM »
I'm sorry to see you go and wish you the best.

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« Reply #2 on: August 26, 2004, 12:06:42 PM »
Hmmmm.....this all sounds pretty desperate stuff, what's the problem Phoenix?

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« Reply #3 on: August 26, 2004, 01:37:27 PM »
Hi Jennifer/ Phoenix,

I haven’t been reading any of the other threads where other stuff has been going on for awhile, so I don’t know if it still has been going on all of this time… I know you mentioned your leaving is not related.

I have to say that I’m very, very sorry to see you leave, as you are one of the people here that I relate to so much, on many levels.  You are a special kind of person, and I have been inspired and motivated by your strength and insight.  You’d be surprised what a few words on a page can do, when they are the exact right words for others, just at that time.   It is just like you said re. CG, people are really “listening”….

Truthfully, I would hope that you would reconsider because it wouldn’t be the same without you here, but I would also respect your personal choice in wanting to do what you feel is best for yourself.  I only hope so much that it has nothing to do with anything going on in other threads.   You can step out of it any time (maybe you have) and just continue your participation in unrelated threads.  When I stopped reading those threads (quite a bit back) it really became as though they didn’t exist.  I was surprised, but one really can put them out of mind, no matter how   :x and crazy making some content can be.    

It may have nothing to do with the other stuff, but if it is even partially due to these things, please do not leave because of that...    Just leave it behind as it is only a small energy niche at the corner of a big board with lots of other welcoming and caring energy going on...  

At any rate, I have always detected an energy of strength and much wisdom around you, and I know you will be able to achieve your goals and move forward in your life with the new changes (moving, etc.), just the way you’d like to…

Like myself in the good old same boat here, I hope that you find employment that is a fit with your “personhood” very soon, and I wish you nothing but the very best in peace, and genuine happiness on your life’s journey…  

Again, really very sorry to see you leave....  :(    Maybe taking a small break might be good, and you will decide to return after a bit...

Hugs,

BT

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« Reply #4 on: August 26, 2004, 01:55:24 PM »
Me again.

I just wanted to reiterate that as David/Onyx mentions, if there happens to be something you would like to share with the group... we're listening!

BT

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« Reply #5 on: August 26, 2004, 06:41:54 PM »
Jennifer--

I'll be back postin' soon on this thread hun'--   Later tonight or tomorrow sweetheart--

Yer in my thoughts hun--

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« Reply #6 on: August 26, 2004, 07:39:12 PM »
Hi Phoenix,

Well, jeepers, I'm gonna miss you. Hope you're simply taking another break.  Happy trails and we will be here (if?  :( ) and when you return.  

I just know things are going to get better for you.  So hope you will check in.  Bye for now, Seeker

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« Reply #7 on: August 27, 2004, 12:28:05 AM »
Your right Onyx- who needs this?

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phoenix

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« Reply #8 on: August 27, 2004, 12:51:50 AM »
or this! Thanks ! I'm gone. Love to my friends ,you know who you are.

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« Reply #9 on: August 27, 2004, 03:48:45 AM »
good luck phoenix.

I have to agree with everything you said here.

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« Reply #10 on: August 27, 2004, 03:48:55 AM »
Oh dear, someones not very happy :?

Before you toddle off Phoenix and throw your rattle even further out of the pram, think hard on this: We're all at different points in a recovery from an event(s) that stressed and tested us to our limits and for some, beyond! It doesn't really matter who on a site like this plays 'Victim, Rescuer or Persecuter roles. We all at some stage interchange and swop roles as we begin to repair outselves!

Our end goal should be to be free of the tread mill of living either one them. Not to be a Victim anymore because we won't allow ourselves to become on! Not to rush in where Angels fear to tread as a Rescuer! And not to Persecute the hell of people for their views and opinions. Come the day, we won't find ourselves having to force our wills upon others because of the damage inflicted upon us in our past lives :)

Years later, I'm much much stronger and can even laugh about most of my experience. In time Pheonix, we all let go of our pasts and start living our futures

It doesn't matter who's right or wrong or who thinks they know or even actually know :lol:.  It doesn't matter Pheonix :D.  Nine tenths of the time, I talk total shit.....and with a raging passion! How ridiculous is that? I wasn't a whole person and in not being so, I ran headlong into the quick sand of a Narcissist! I couldn't wantenly bury myself fast enough if I tried! In the aftermath of it all, I realised that there was something wrong with me too!

Well all meet smart asses in our lives....and yes they're are probably a number on here.....maybe even I'm one! Sure there are a number of NPDers on here who are playing the Victim role having been spurned by a wiser soul than us. But isn't that the fun part; being able to spot and play with them!! It kind of keeps our senses alert to what we might meet in our real lives and not cyber space :wink:

I've come to this site and said my peace. Some have replied, more have read and I'm happier for having articulated my thoughts, even if they're way wrong! Stick around and play your thoughts out somemore Phoenix! Remember, you don't have to be right, none of us do :) This is Cyber space, a place for you to simulate your thoughts. A place for you to see if they work and if they don't, ditch them before putting them into practice in your real life.

On here, we've all been damaged goods at some stage in our lives. Why deny us the ability to see you get better? Stick around Phoenix, we all have bad days honey :)

David

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« Reply #11 on: August 27, 2004, 05:17:33 AM »
Dear Onyx,

I can take no offense from anything you have said. I understand your point of view. Thank you for taking the time to reply.

This issue runs deeper though, than how you are seeing it. There is a history behind it, as well.

I spent some time deciding whether to post  what I wrote, would it be of value to anyone? What the heck. For me it was an exercise in speaking my mind.

I've played all the thoughts out I want to here. I see no value in sticking around. I guess that's for me to decide.

Take care , Phoenix

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« Reply #12 on: August 27, 2004, 05:28:16 AM »
One question for you: Not specifically, but where abouts in the world do you reside?

David

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« Reply #13 on: August 27, 2004, 05:33:34 AM »
Quote from: Onyx
One question for you: Not specifically, but where abouts in the world do you reside?

David


Calilfornia, SF Bay Area.

While you are here, check out the above.

Oh yeah, and really, I am not unhappy. :D Phoenix

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« Reply #14 on: August 27, 2004, 05:48:37 AM »
Phoenix,

Thanks for sharing your dreams, and door symbolism and about your cat with us. I enjoyed your posts and support. You are cool.  8) I respect your decision, but will miss you, Phoenix with a capital P that I was getting to know.

flower