Hey everyone,
just wanted to tell you that I took myself off to France to try and shake off the desperation. I have been staying in a retreat and just participating in a creative writing course.. I am not recovered by any means but I feel calmer in myself.. I am desperately hurt at what happened but now I am determined to make it through as I want to be in a place to be of some use to other people like us. I'm going home today and my flat is in chaos but I guess I just need to tidy it up and move on... he tried to contact me once while I was away by msn. I ignored him. i am still devastated that he did what he did. I still have some of his stuff but for now I just can't face it.. The ugly stuff is still there and I have developed this awful habit of touching my face which even feels ugly.. I will get over this eventually I just wanted to say that out loud...
Spyrale xxxxxxx
