Good going, GS! I know what you mean - I just use different terms... shifting the center of my "gravity" of self from Lbrain, to a bit more Rbrain... looking for the new balance.
Some days are better than others - and I'm still falling into the "traps" of habit/routine bad-thinking/feeling... but the L-Rbrain concepts are really making a difference - a positive one - in how trapped I am; how long I'm spending re-grooving the old wax tracks on Lbrain. One of the biggest things I discovered is that I'm not going to be able to escape Lbrain -- and I don't want to, really. I do need some of those survival techniques and Lbrain skills, ya know? I am re-recording the stuff on the wax tracks, though... creating NEW routines... and working to convince Lbrain me, that it's not going anywhere... but it needs a break, so that I can be more Rbrain me... and that it'll feel better if it does relinquish that old, total control.
I know this has all been said & explained better by others and goes by different therapeutic names; what I'm doing isn't anything original. It's just that for me, the L-Rbrain model "fits" what I know about myself; it suits me. And I keep making discoveries...
... like today, it seems obvious that my outrage over work-stuff is due to Lbrain's love of mechanical, efficient processes... and it feels threatened by the amount of overload in number of projects/tasks assigned to me (ever increasing on a daily basis, it seems) because it knows that it's not possible to do a "good" job rushing from one thing to another or trying to multitask beyond 3-4 things at once (this is actually problem-creating in tech work).
I'm making a valiant attempt to set a boundary about how much is too much - to no avail. It's the old problem of it's all equally important and it all has to be accomplished now - as if by magic. And my boundaries about workload and process are always poo-poo'd as being too emotional (!!)
So here I sit waiting for rescue - still - via the probate process. The irony isn't lost on me. Two more tasks to be accomplished by my probate team... then I expect to be able to simply walk away from trigger-hell at school. My idea of staying there and using the triggers in my healing hasn't been all bad; but it seems like just more of the same expectation that I can "take a licking and keep on ticking". It would be a lot more pleasant and faster and easier to simply get myself out of trigger-hell and be able to just be the "new balance" of R-Lbrain me. And maybe I CAN accomplish this while still there... but why pile on difficulty? Not even the satisfaction of acheiving this will make up for the crap that I keep exposing myself to, by being there.
It's still beating my head on the brick wall - cigarette in hand - expecting a different result. And it's still changing ME to fit into an insane, irrational situation... instead of letting it go.