The Shape of the NM

[Ami]

I think there is a shape to life--i.e. real life as it IS not as the NM told you it was.I think the key is to keep trying to seek out what is "real" in anything--yourself, situations, other people.
 What IS real is different than what you WANT to be real.
 I wanted to think people had the answers for me if I could only find the right people. That was a more comforting thought than that no one knows any more than *I* do.
 Wheh!
 It is comforting to think that people live on a "higher plane" but I don't think this is often the case--sometimes--of course--but you can't count on it. You have to be able to see what IS, what is real. Then, you can chose how to act but you will have  the facts. That is emotional health, I think.           Ami
 

[Ami]

I think when you have an NM you get a hopelessness ."Why bother, everything that is self enhancing they try to destroy so why try? Why hope, dream ?
 I think that I became co-dependent  in my early teens b/c people provided a warm fuzzy.
 Then, I think I looked at people as balm for the wounds.
 Now, I am trying to face life as it is and people CAN'T be balm for the wounds b/c it is not reality .  People can be warm fuzzies by sharing and loving but they can't come in and fill your emptiness.
 I think that is what I am seeing,now.
    Ami

[Ami]

I guess my M couldn't help it..She was under water as *I* was. I hurt myself more than other people but I was not as bad as she was cuz I had a GM who loved me .
 When you are "out to lunch"--you just are .         Ami