Blackie/Whitie

[Ami]

Oh, Yes, I can understand why you would be worried if Blackie came out, it might disrupt your life, impact your marriage.
It might be unsafe if Blackie came out.

Ok, I won't encourage Blackie to come out. She can come out whenever she is ready.

We can have a coming out Party for Blackie when she decides it's ok. Black cake, Black crepe paper banners. Oh that would be fun!

Yes ,(((Helen))),I think when Blackie comes out I will put on my spike heels and walk out the door.                  

[Meh]

Whitie cannot do things in her own interest? If there was a tack on her ass, she would be sitting there wondering what she should do?
 

I know you are serious, but I have to say this made me LAUGH.


Whitie must really suffer for this type of paralysis.

I believe that Whitie and Blackie will evolve in time Ami. I can picture the day that Whitie can pull the tack off of her own ass.
I can picture the day that Blackie can come out and talk and celebrate herself.

It's ok if it's not this day, but some day.....I picture it...... Do you picture it Ami?

[Ami]

Umm    Maybe let it be. You write all your ideas but Whitie and Blackie are too tired to answer. I love to hear your ideas though   !!!((Helen))). I am gonna get off now and rest.          xxxoooo           Ami

[Meh]

Ok, BYE!!   XOXOXO

XOXOXO    Blackie can tell me to bugger off at anytime, I will not be offended.  

[Ami]

Ok, BYE!!

Blackie can tell me to bugger off at anytime, I will not be offended. 

Thank you Helen. Same goes for me. I may write more now about Whities life but she can't face herself any more  b/c your questions are too insightful . xxxxxxxoooooooooo            Ami

[Ami]

Whitie goes out twice a week with a drinking group. They would call it social group .
 The girls love Blackie cuz Blackie comes out with just one beer. Whitie gets shocked at what Blackie says but Blackie does what she wants .

 

[Ami]

The woman love Blackie. Whitie is very reticent about woman. There are all types of woman  but Whitie is afraid of woman in general, even sweet ,mousy ones.

[Ami]

This morning Whitie and her H went out to breakfast.  H is not abusive any more b/c he knows Whitie will leave. He is nice to Whitie cuz he does not want to be alone.
 When Whitie talks about passionate things like music, his eyes glaze over. He needs the Whitie of the old days.
 He asks, Where is the relationship going?" Whitie says she wants  not to be crazy for once in her life.
 
 

 

[Ami]

That is really a wonderful goal--not to be crazy before I die. I am so happy with Whitie right now that we are going to buy a pocketbook on E bay.  Helen ,we will have a party when Whitie removes the tack           xxxoooo   Ami       



                 

[Ami]

About my repressed memory. When I told my F my M "molested "me, he said,"Let me look up "molest" in the dictionary.I was on the phone while he did.  It said disturb.
 Whitie didn't take a bath for 3 weeks.                 

[Ami]

My girlfriend ,on the Board, asked me if Whitie/Blackie(me) feel we are dirty. Probably but I can't access it because Whitie  keeps talking.
 Whitie has  a whole life she hasn't lived.
  Her mother told her normal people have friends , have people to their houses.

 
  

 
 

 

 

[Ami]

Whitie tried to look normal even though she was a bad housekeeper.  
Whitie hates housekeeping, sewing, typing, organizing,  wearing the right size bra.
 Emotional health is seeing life as it is, yourself as you are. Distortions make you crazy in Whities definition of crazy.
 It is not hopeless.
 Whitie has a straw which takes air from her crypt to the outside.
  Whitie is gonna be all right.


Helen asked me why Blackie can't come out. She can't,only under duress.Blackie is left over from healthy days.
 Blackie would have never been abused. Whitie is proud that Blackie respects herself so much.
 Blackie has good memories.
 Blackie had a self . That is the key,having a self.
 Whitie got blanked out.To Whitie,having a self was as bad as killing someone. Her mother had all kinds of stories.Her M got TB after college.
  If kids made her too tired ,she would get it again.

  
 

        
 
 
 
 

[Ami]

Whitie has so many secrets  but they come out hard.
 She wishes she could throw them up and they would land at her feet and  wash away but she can't because maybe SHE will come up with them,dissolved all over the place.


Last night, Whitie panicked that she was taking up too much room .
 "You are  self centered,  immature,  wasteful, you don't know about LIFE."
YOUOOOOOOOO




The only people that ever really hurt Whitie were her mother, father and husband. She doesn't have much friend or relationship wreakage.
 Blackie would pick friends,
 Whitie thinks Blackie could possibly be bad . That is why Blackie does not have full rein.



What if you had a dog who gave all it's bones to the other dogs?  My Yorkie defends her bones. Does that make her BAD?

[Meh]

Hello Whitie,

Keep writing...... if you feel like it......there is a lot of room on the board.


I see a spacious room with many new, unused, big thick story books , the pages are blank. There is a pen/pencil next to the books.

[Ami]

Thank you, Helen,  for your warmth  .

Whitie is very tired today. Her friend is coming across  country and she is scared to death.
Whitie lives  in a  mausoleum.
She herself is mummified if you want to get right down to it.
Whitie looks good. People say so. Whitie likes to buy things.
Whitie has too many pocketbooks but is  still buying.
There is one she has her eye on, small , pink/coral with a wild but tasteful design.
 That would be for Blackie.