Blackie/Whitie

[Ami]

First of all, a relationship can't make you 'you". That is a good starting point. You think  it can especially when you had our kind of Mothers. You think all sorts of crazy things, as we all know.
 So, Whitie has to know that she has to be a self before she can really be part of a couple.
  It is a simple truth that someone would know if they were sane.
   Whitie is just on the verge of sanity so don't be so hard on her for learning .
 

[Ami]

You know the biggest ball buster. I hate that expression. My friend, an ex-cop from NYC, used  it so much that I got used to it . The biggest ball buster is that  you are alone.
 After all the people pleasing and approval seeking, you are alone, anyway.
 It would be a cosmic joke if you didn't have God., If you didn't you could laugh until you screamed.
  I am  seeing life that way. You are laughing and then you are screaming before you know it.
  
 
 

[Ami]

 Whitie has to be careful she is not the astronaut in the diaper  reduced to a slavish ,obsessed state.
We could all do it.
Whitie thinks that when she sees someone go cukoo, she could do it in an instant.

[Ami]

Whities grandmother was a true lady from generations past when things like that mattered. Whitie tries to live up to her standards cuz that is all Whitie has of her-===-memories  and morals that would make Whitie worthy of her,even now.
 That must be how it feels when you have a good mother.
 You hold her deep inside.
 She is in Whitie's heart : a cameo.
 She had someone who loved her.
 She can't go off on some crazy tangent .
 She has to be a person her GM would be proud of .
 It matters. It was all she had of love. It matters a lot.

[Ami]

 Whitie dreams of Heaven where there will be enough love. It is like the Little Match Girl. In some versions, she is taken to Heaven after  the matches have burned.
 They didn't know she went to beautiful places before she died.
  In the beautiful places is her baby  and  there are no NM's.

[swimmer]

No NM's..... A heaven indeed, one that we (daughters of NM's) have known all along.... we were all born with a center, so it is there!!  We just can't see it ourselves.   

(((((((Ami)))))))

[Ami]

Love you (((((Swimmer)))))))                      Ami

[swimmer]

)) keep the chin up:)). Like you do with everyone here, you deserve it:)

[Ami]

Thank you , Sweet Friend!!!                x o x o   Ami