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Ami

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« Reply #15 on: September 06, 2009, 08:24:00 AM »
Thinking of you,((( Kelly.))) You have many hard days in front of you with the funeral and all that pain that entails. My heart goes out to you.
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« Reply #16 on: September 06, 2009, 08:51:59 AM »
Well thank you everyone....

I was laying in bed fatigued from my chemo.  I got a call at 10:27 am from my mom.  She told me dad and she were at the hospital.....this time it sounded different.

Dad had been in and out of the hospital for the last 21 years.  Triple bypass.  Stints.  I think he had around 12 stints in his heart.  We felt he had nine lives.  He never let his symptoms get so bad.....he would always go to the doc.

I told my mom I was on my way and called my daughter....her reaction was......"what now?"  I said this time seems different.

When I got to the ER I went in and told them my dad's name.  A man came up and said "follow me."  I rounded the corner and saw my mom sitting there in a daze.  I just knew.  She shook her head.  I feel sorry for the people in the ER.  I was sobbing and saying like, NO NO NO!!  Don't you tell me that!!!! 

It was true.  They tried to save him....the paddles, CPR....his lungs filled with fluid.....he had congestive heart failure.....

Then my daughter and her husband and my granddaughter came in.......same scenario with her.  WE all loved my dad.  I wonder how my Nmom felt?  I don't know if everyone will fall apart when she passes......

But we have been together ever sense.  They live in a big house and the big screen always has a football game on....loud!!  My dad talked real loud too.  He was probably hushed a lot by my mom just like I was...  THe house is quiet now.  Except lots of family gathered and so much food was brought over........we ate all day and more food arrived......

My dad was popular......he was 75....I loved him....

Kelly

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« Reply #17 on: September 06, 2009, 09:04:20 AM »
I know you already know this but you are in shock about the cancer and then this. Try to take the time you can to lie down and be quiet when the times allow.
 Shock and grief are powerful forces.
    xxxxoooo     Ami
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« Reply #18 on: September 06, 2009, 09:22:42 AM »
Yeah, 2009 has been a hell of a year!
Kelly

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« Reply #19 on: September 06, 2009, 10:19:10 AM »
Sending you my thoughts and hopes for you......

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« Reply #20 on: September 06, 2009, 12:02:34 PM »
.....and my aunt and the dysfunctional part of the family that squats near my mom to be near her money?  Her husband was lounging in my dad's recliner....none of them cried.....

my dad just bought a brand new van......decked out......all the bells and whistles.........he asked me just a few weeks ago if I wanted it.  I do.  How should I tell my mom without being a vulture and before my aunt's family steps in and tries to get it??
Kelly

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« Reply #21 on: September 06, 2009, 12:10:09 PM »
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Kelly)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

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« Reply #22 on: September 06, 2009, 07:14:05 PM »
.....and my aunt and the dysfunctional part of the family that squats near my mom to be near her money?  Her husband was lounging in my dad's recliner....none of them cried.....

my dad just bought a brand new van......decked out......all the bells and whistles.........he asked me just a few weeks ago if I wanted it.  I do.  How should I tell my mom without being a vulture and before my aunt's family steps in and tries to get it??


That sounds like such a yucky part of life. Just tell them, Kelly!                     Ami
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« Reply #23 on: September 08, 2009, 11:35:27 AM »

Thinking our you, ((Kelly))

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« Reply #24 on: September 08, 2009, 12:16:28 PM »
You have my heartfelt sympathies for all you are going through at this time.  Its so unfair!

Stay strong!

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« Reply #25 on: September 09, 2009, 08:33:08 PM »
09.09.09 we laid my precious father to rest......I will miss him!
Kelly

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« Reply #26 on: September 10, 2009, 05:25:47 PM »
Mr. Kelly Daddy,

I'm sorry you're gone, I hope you're peaceful, and I KNOW you're proud of your daughter.

Love,
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« Reply #27 on: September 10, 2009, 05:28:01 PM »
Oh ((Kelly))))
 I am so sorry                                    Ami
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« Reply #28 on: September 13, 2009, 10:26:29 AM »
Transitions:

So I finally emerged from the total dominance of my Narcissistic Mother......and what a battle it was.  Hard fought.  Lots of blood, sweat and tears!!

Then my daughter gets married and has a baby.

Then I get a cancer diagnosis and am going through chemo.

Then my middle daughter goes away to college.

Then my precious father dies.

Now I am grieving.  I am tired.  I miss my dad.  I miss my daughter.

What more can I do?  How much more can I take??

It is my turn to LIVE!!!!
Kelly

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« Reply #29 on: September 13, 2009, 10:29:23 AM »
Transitions:

So I finally emerged from the total dominance of my Narcissistic Mother......and what a battle it was.  Hard fought.  Lots of blood, sweat and tears!!

Then my daughter gets married and has a baby.

Then I get a cancer diagnosis and am going through chemo.

Then my middle daughter goes away to college.

Then my precious father dies.

Now I am grieving.  I am tired.  I miss my dad.  I miss my daughter.

What more can I do?  How much more can I take??

It is my turn to LIVE!!!!


I was just thinking about this, Kelly. Do you feel it is SELFISH to live? I do. Down deep, I think I am sucking the life out of my M if *I* live.
 It is deep and I have just gotten in touch with it from the help of my friend, Helen, who pointed it out from one of my posts. Maybe ,it does not apply to you but thought I would get your insights on it.
 ((((((Kelly))))))    Big Hugs  OOOOOOOO                Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung