Hi HoP,
On another thread you mentioned your H's reaction to your son's bad language, and how you were wrestling with a feeling perhaps you should apologize to your H for not feeling what he felt.
I wanted to say I think there are two pieces, and write a "fantasy dialogue" I thought of, in case it's helpful. If it's not, do ignore--I indulge myself sometimes in writing dialogues for other people but I don't believe someone should follow any "script" I produce! For me, it's just a way of thinking about the situations others are in, sometimes. (Any my own...)
[always start with an underlying positive]H, I wanted to tell you something. You're a loving father and I love you for caring so much about our son.
[describe and own your own feelings without apology]I felt a little frustrated with your powerful reaction to our son's language. I don't like it either but it's not as terrible a thing to me. I look at it in context and feel that although I'd rather he didn't use that language, I can see it as a temporary thing when he's venting. I'm hoping he'll grow out of it.
[gently remind him--and yourself--that it's good to be separate people]But we don't have to have the exact same thoughts about it. It's okay that we're not mirror images.
[return to the underlying positive]It means so much to you that our son should be respectful and show good character in his speech as well as his actions. That's the kind of man
you are, and I'm so glad you're his father.
[offer an apology only for any part you'd like to retract]I want to apologize for being sarcastic when I said:
what it must be like to be the eldest son of a father who believes in setting standards as high as possible.
Sarcasm is hurtful, I know that aimed at a nerve, and I'm sorry.
[then let it go, this is where you forgive yourself!][close with the underlying positive]I love you, and we're on the same team.
What the fantasy dialogue says to me is that the two parts could be:
You DON'T want to apologize for thinking your own thoughts and having your own separate opinions, because that would be unhealthy (no boundaries). It's fine that you see it differently.
You MIGHT want to apologize for sarcasm, that's always a good thing to do.
When you
start and end with underlying positives, communication about disagreements or differences of opinion becomes less scary. With consistent practice of handling issues this way, people increase their feelings of safety. They may not agree, but they begin to realize they can talk about anything because the dialogue is framed by positives and includes non-abandonment.
[I learned this from books and workshops. And I am divorced twice, which tells you how urgently I needed to learn it. So this really IS fantasy, on my part. But if I ever remarry or find a lifelong partner, I swear I'll try to use this approach!]
Hugs,
Hops