Thankyou both!
Guest, I can relate most of that dream to parts of my current situation for sure.
The question about the baby being real..... it's confusing to me. I believed the baby was real, all along, except I didn't even remember I had a baby in that SUV or at least, I didn't take it with me, when I ran to the fire, which would be negligent and not good. And it really felt like a real baby, for most of the dream when it came to my worrying about it and taking care of it and when I saw it. It was almost like I made up a lie..... that the baby wasn't real..... for some reason, when I felt close to the woman but then....
when I looked, it was indeed a doll??? So, it wasn't a lie. I dunno.
Until.... it was time to go and then... the baby seemed very real again so ???? weird to say the least.
(Thinking about it now, maybe I made the baby into a doll to justify my leaving it in the SUV all alone, on a road? And to make the pins getting stuck in it.... not so nasty? Or maybe the baby goes back and forth between being real and not for some other reason? I haven't a clue).
Also, I agree with your definition of a friend (and I might add to it but that's a whole other topic)......
Still, it wasn't exactly that I was questioning her friendwomanship, so far, but rather, it was a feeling..... a sense I got..... that she was just being kind and not really interested in being friends, I guess. But when I think about it..... maybe the fact that she had done all of the giving and helping so far felt very uneven.... not properly reciprocated? Maybe that was why it didn't feel like it was a real friendship or why she might not want it to?
Thanks for your questions. A different view really helps me to see more than I ever would on my own.
CB, I tell ya, if that dream was a message from me to me..... I haven't got it straight yet but I'll keep trying! It was so intense! I may be journalling forever!! And my brain cells will likely give out before I think it all through!!

Thanks for your ideas on stuff to think about re the symbols. Yes, lot's to think about. Interesting eh? I keep trying to imagine myself as the me, in the dream, as the baby AND as the woman and somehow, I can't get my brain to register it all. It seems weirder, if that's possible but hey..... it helps to make it more entertaining and maybe not so serious too.
See above about whether the baby is real or not. My question is..... if it wasn't a doll..... why did I say it was? And when I looked, in that moment, it actually was a doll but when I looked when the pins were in it.... it was a real baby, babbling and smiling away and also at all the other times too. So

????? Real? Not real? I have my own personal Alice in Wonderland right smack in my head!! No wasting money on entertainment for me!!
I'm not sure I explained my feelings thoroughly about the bad people that barged in. Oh I did feel very afraid of them! That's for sure! I was terrified, to be honest and I think it was because I wasn't sure why they were there or what they were going to do and their behaviour was getting worse and worse but I was trying so hard to just keep my wits about me and figger out a way to get rid of them.....
So I shelved my fear and didn't panic. That's typically "normal" for me in real life.
As to the woman..... I wouldn't say it was so much fear but more dread.... not wanting her to be disappointed in me, after all she had done for me. I felt anxious that she would conclude "bad things about me" before I'd get a chance to explain. So I just wanted to make the mess disappear before she saw it. I believe I would have told her what had happened, if I had of had time to tidy up, but I would have felt better about getting things in order and not shocking her as she came through the door after a long day at work. I didn't want to wreck her day????

(I know, what about my day???).
True, I don't think I was worried about any danger to myself. I think I was worried, again, for my baby. For some reason.... I felt they were looking for that baby and maybe I was hiding it??? Or at least, trying to protect it from them? I remember now that I kept hoping the baby would be quiet.
Thanks for pointing out what jumped out at you. It all helps. Different perspectives. Helps me look at it differently. Helps me to examine it differently.
You've both made it less scary, so thanks. (I was shaking like a leaf when I woke up. Not fun).
Sela