When do you come here?

[river]

I feel drawn here in the evenings after I've eaten, I guess I feel lonely, but not for just 'a person' but for a meaningful connection with the world. 
I live alone. 
And I have come to spend oodles of time alone for something similare to what :Phoenix said in another ;post, I could only really relate when I was relating to others about this.  Whats 'this'?   Well even that for me is a potentially alienating one.  Because I have come to see Nism as only a single part of a larger dynamic, a mobile of disorders.  (the kind of mobile that hangs from the cieling and each balances the other out).   So, with this difference, I can feel also alienated here.  But I believe, hope, Im getting better at communicating, and perhaps even less dependent on others' response, although of course its very important too.
These disorders are Bs Xs and Ns.  B=borderline, N=narcisisst X=schizoid, (for exile)

So, Im here, havent washed up, so many other things I should be doing, but I got into this strange 'other world' this community of sharing accross the world, quite awesome really.     : ) 

[Guest]

I come here at least once a day to check for messages.
If i'm busy I might not check in for a day or so.
At some point I will delete this account and won't be back.

[JustKathy]

I come here as often as I can. Sometimes I get busy, and don't visit for months, other times, I'm here several times a day. I ALWAYS come here immediately after I have an "event" with my NM or Co-F. There's no other place I can go where I can be around people who really "get it." I've yet to find a therapist who has the insight that the members here do, probably because you have all lived it, and no one who hasn't lived it can truly understand what it's like.

I'm grateful that this board is here. When NM attacks, I could easily reach for a drink or some other chemical to numb my pain, but instead, I can come here and find peace. Thank you all.

[Hopalong]

Morning and night, and when I can sneak a peek, even at work...

What a comfort to come glimpse those comforting names, when I'm going through something lonely or alienating. Even when I don't have time/energy to type, it's reassuring just to see the talking's still going on.

I can't count the times in recent years when VESMB has been THE liferaft when I was in really acute pain. I can't count them.

I feel huge gratitude. Whether or not my participation ebbs and flows...no score needed. I'm always going to be grateful for what VESMB has been.

love,
Hops

[Izzy_*now*]

I check in every day to see if there is a topic de jour for me, as I've been in no man's land for a couple of years.

I know that, for the most part, this is a board of friends who have all experienced somewhat the same in life. Some are wiser than others; some are 'stucker' than others. We each have/had a problem of some sort and some are better than others in expressing/interpreting another's issues.

I have been quite reclusive for the past couple of years regarding the accident as that's all those years have been about... ME....and it sounds selfish, but more and more I appreciate and value my solitude, but for my physical therapist. 3 x a week then she is off to aother client but we really get along. Her husband is currently in a mess because of his N parents. There is nothing I can tell her that she doesn't know, as she has an N mother, but I can listen, understand and she listens when I talk.  It's been a long time since I've had a 3D friend like K.

The only new news I have is that I asked my lawyer to start bringing my Claim to an end, and he is obliging!

Bless y'all
Izzy

[Hopalong]

That PT has wings...I am so glad she's come into your life Izzy...

You had been so isolated before.

I am eager to hear what's happening with your pain level.

Great news your case is moving on.

xxoo
Hops

[river]

What lovely replies.  A 'meeting of the ways'.   

Wonder if Dr G. has seen all this appreciation. 

r.

[Dr. Richard Grossman]

Wonder if Dr G. has seen all this appreciation. 

r.

I have, river.  Thank you!

Richard

p.s.  I come here multiple times a day...

[river]

I come here at least once a day to check for messages.
If i'm busy I might not check in for a day or so.
At some point I will delete this account and won't be back.

Guest. why the sudden exit plan:? 

[Guest]

Ah River! Your question surprised me there.

Um, it's not a plan and not sudden as such, more a statement of how I imagine some point in the future.
Hmm. I probably will delete the account. Will I be back though? Well. I don't know. I kinda doubt it, but , who knows? Certainly not me, for sure. We'll see.
Thanks for asking River.

[seastorm]

I used to come here several times a day. It was my life raft. I could not imagine letting a day go by without checking in. There is a level of caring and connection here that is lacking in my life otherwise. It is just circumstances and health.
Thanks goodness this site is here.
I really care about what happens to people and I am glad that their stories continue. I can't see leaving this behind. It is one really good thing.

Sea storm

[Meh]

I think I come here when I feel overwhelmed....stuck...lonely...alienated. I come here to confirm my sanity after interacting with the Nar-factor in my family because the main theme of what they communicate to me is that my perceptions are somehow skewed.

I come here to de-brainwash myself. This is the best place I have found to do it.

[bearwithme]

I come here quite often.  Even if I haven't posted much lately, I still lurk in the corners to see what's up.  My life recently has been light.  Having said that, it's been heavier.  What?  Oh, I can't explain that right now but all I can say is that I love coming here when it's quiet in my house.  When I can think and sit alone and read...then write something I feel is meaningful...