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Revenge Fantasies?
JustKathy:
I'd love to get some revenge, but I never really think about it, probably because I know there really isn't any kind of revenge that would satisfy me. Nothing, not even NM's death, can undo the damage that she's inflicted. Nothing will give me my life back, make me normal inside, take away my insecurities and pain, the nightmares I still have of her tormenting me in high school, and the worst, a lifetime of family members believing that she was the perfect mother, and that there was something wrong with ME.
I suppose the only revenge that would make me happy would be for everyone to somehow learn the truth. For all of my aunts, uncles, cousins to learn about the horrible things she did to me. To also learn that my Co-Father, who they all adore, enabled her. I want someone to believe me. Sometimes I do wish for her death, but not as revenge, more as a way of gaining freedom. Otherwise, I don't see death or injury as being satisfying to anyone but her. She would, after all, get attention from it.
I suppose not letting her get to me, or at least not letting her KNOW that she 's getting to me ... that's the only real revenge I can get.
teartracks:
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My mind went back to the 70's when people used the phrase 'dropped acid'. I think you meant that you'd like to give her a bath in acid? Or were you thinking you'd spike her drink?
tt
BonesMS:
--- Quote from: teartracks on December 08, 2011, 11:09:21 PM ---
--- Quote ---dropping acid
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My mind went back to the 70's when people used the phrase 'dropped acid'. I think you meant that you'd like to give her a bath in acid? Or were you thinking you'd spike her drink?
tt
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Hey, TT.
I was thinking in the 70's term regarding LSD. Unfortunately, I don't think the N's would notice the difference.
Bones
sKePTiKal:
I dunno Bones.... I think acid might be a good "shock therapy" for Ns...
if for no other reason than the fact that for the duration of the drug's effect...
a.) they would no longer be in "control" of "reality"...
b.) because of A... they would no longer believe in their ability to control other people
and then there's the 50-50 chance that their brains would be re-wired for the duration of the "trip" in such a way that they'd feel at one with the universe, feel empathy for other people, and not be the only person whose feelings "mattered"... and actually remember this after "coming down".
On the other hand... it could also make them even more N after, because of that same experience.
JustKathy:
--- Quote ---and then there's the 50-50 chance that their brains would be re-wired for the duration of the "trip" in such a way that they'd feel at one with the universe, feel empathy for other people, and not be the only person whose feelings "mattered"
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Okay, this is REALLY interesting. Definitely got me thinking. I wonder if there is any documentation of Ns taking hallucinogenic drugs, and how they reacted? Can mental illness be temporary halted, or are their brains so hard wired that the drug would simply bring out other N qualities? Somewhere there must be someone who has an N parent that took opiates or other mind altering drugs for a legitimate medical condition. Anyone have any experience with this?
This may sound utterly sadistic of me, but I'm curious, IF my mother really does have cancer, and ends up on a morphine drip at the end, will she out herself as an N on her death bed? The thought of it just gives me the giggles. I know she fantasizes about her Oscar winning death scene, with everyone gathered around the dying queen, fanning her with palm frawns, laying gold at her feet. What if her death scene turns out to be her babbling hatred and ugliness and outing her evilness right before she goes out. Now THAT is a nice revenge fantasy.
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