Hi All,
It is 6:19 a.m and I have been up for two hours after lying awake from bedtime on. The last two nights have been such, and if I grab 40 winks in a mid-day or -night, my mind can convince me that a whole day has passed, not just an hour. This morning I couldn`t believe the weekend had gone by so fast, but before sleep I had checked the date and it said Sunday, 21st so the next day would be Monday and off to Wound Care, Therefore the sleeplessness arrived. Nevertheless I got out of bed and the computer again told me it was Sunday, 21st. WTH? So I lived another Sunday and am now up very early for today`s appointment at 2:15 p.m.
Part of not sleeping was s.o.b. and it is quite disturbing just trying to find the most comfortable way to breathe. So that`s all I do for this chf, is breathe and take water pills,
Hmph! I though it was more complicated than that!
I should be over my Wound Care before winter sets in. The largest sore was 7.9 cm x 2 cm and is now abut 1.9 cm x .4. The deepest sore was at my knee and I have no stats on it, but at least is healing and never reached the bone.
Now the nurses tell me more about the beginning and what a mess I was, plus even thoughts of amputation. They praise me on my pleasant attitude, so I tell them about one woman (no name) in the waiting room who said she wanted to get the hell out of there, or else have someone slit her throat. She is older than I.
Karla and her husband just spent 3 weeks in Europe. I sure missed her, as did my bones, and Ellen just took on another job in a coffee shop owed by millionaire Christians, so she is happy, and still with me, as well as gaining 2 more clients.
My brother and I are still corresponding via email, and it is a pleasant connection. He says it like it is, period, and I agree with his way. Sometimes, I expect, we take our cue from our correspondent, but I cannot be all sweetness and perfect like my sister. I can be short and more to the point like my brother. (It comes to mind that I do have 2 more sisters. Hmmmm!)
No more email from Big D, but she had a first hip replacement on September 15 and the other? Well her F`book mentioned not both hips replaced at the same time because of her history of the heart attack, and recovery would be in a Rehab Place until she was ready for the steps at her home.
After Dr. Grossman`s `If you came to my office….` to GS on her trauma link, I realized that I had stopped hard-wiring to the family and substituted my links to Karla and Ellen and the 100,000 nurses in Wound Care who love me, and I them, for the fun and compliments given--I am always on time, I am trustworthy, I have a pleasant outlook, I keep track of my own care….`. Plus I care for all the people who are not expecting the most from me when I am unable to give it now!
So I will set the alarm and go back to bed.
Love to All
Izzy
