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My mum is ill
Twoapenny:
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--- Quote from: Twoapenny on January 27, 2013, 04:06:54 AM ---
--- Quote from: BonesMS on January 27, 2013, 02:42:49 AM ---
--- Quote from: Twoapenny on January 26, 2013, 07:16:52 AM ---Thanks, Bonesie,
That's probably similar to what's happened to me. I remember sitting in a car smoking weed after a particularly heavy night out - all sorts of drugs - and thinking "there must be more to life than this". And that was a long time ago now, the booze took a lot longer to get rid of completely - probably another ten years and, like you, I don't crave either of those things now. But I sort of don't crave anything else either? I feel an almost constant sense of just getting through the day and being kept sane by simple pleasures like a film or a book and some chocolate. I find interacting with people tiring and, a lot of the time, boring? I don't think that's normal? It's different online, the face to face stuff isn't there, it doesn't feel like you have to think about anything other than what you are saying, particularly when it's in an anonymous way like this (I know a lot of us know each other well online but in the real world we could walk past each other in the street and not have a clue). So forums I can cope with, I like to read, I have a whole wonderful life inside my head of how I'd like it to be and what I imagine 'life' should or could be like, but the reality is I've done the housework this morning, we'll go and do some shopping after lunch, I'll log on again after dinner and then I'll watch a film after my son has gone to bed. I can't even think of anyone I'd like to see or speak to, or anything I'd really like to do? I seem to have fallen in love with my pyjamas! They're very cute and snuggly :)
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I can relate to that. Not having a professional, who gets it, to talk to makes things difficult on my side of the Pond.
What I've started to do is some creative writing based on my imagination within the Star Trek Universe. I'm not planning on sharing it at this time....just writing for my own entertainment.
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I think that's it, it's not being able to talk to people who understand - not just about the big things like this, but about other aspects of my life - my son's disability, being lonely, finding it hard to trust people, finding TV boring, not caring who wins X Factor - big things and small things. Sometimes I try and open up and I'm met with blank looks or silences - or those complete change of topics that people do when they really haven't a clue what to say next.
I love the idea of creative writing. I find I never finish anything - I feel incredibly enthusiastic for a couple of days and do loads and then leave it. I like the sound od something within Star Trek, though, I think it's nice to be writing just for your own sake without the pressure of trying to get it published or asking others to read it - just something for you to enjoy for yourself and not have to share :)
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Thanks, (((((((((((((((Tupp))))))))))))))))))).
I have to admit, that I am lonely because no one around here GETS it.
With creative writing, the beauty of it is that I can write at my own pace.....let the story percolate for awhile, then go back to it when my imagination starts thinking of more details to add. I started writing my story back in June 2012 and just started dumping my issues into it.....it feels therapeutic. I don't know if there is any such thing as therapeutic creative writing.
BTW, I borrowed a FUN idea from Tribbles author, David Gerrold.....WRITERS REVENGE!!! Include your enemy in the story and treat them like a RED SHIRT or any way that feels right to you!!!! You could set your phaser on heavy stun or vaporize the !@#$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bones
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Bonesie, I like the idea of getting your revenge via a story! What a great idea. It is lonely when no-one gets it, I feel like that a lot, too. At the same time I feel like I'm trying to hammer myself into a hole that just isn't made for me. Why should we be in holes? Why do we need so badly to fit in? I cut short a conversation with a 'friend' this morning - my new 8 minute rule - if there's no question from them about me then I'm not talking any longer. I feel like I'm interviewing people sometimes. Two way conversation - I need to practise!
Strangely, I've been to the doctor this morning and there may be a problem with my heart. Odd that that's come up within a couple of weeks of that letter about my mum's heart problems. I'm wondering if my aunties will badger my mum to be nice to me if I write and tell them that I'm ill? Somehow I doubt it (I'm not going to write to them, by the way, it's just a hypothetical) :)
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Hopalong:
Tupp, you so don't deserve to be so lonely.
I send you much hope, that you'll find some positive
experiences (perhaps a structured group would be less
fraught to start, or small group activity) in 3-D.
Big hugs to you and your sore heart,
Hops
BonesMS:
--- Quote from: Twoapenny on January 28, 2013, 09:20:20 AM ---
--- Quote from: BonesMS on January 27, 2013, 08:31:54 AM ---
--- Quote from: Twoapenny on January 27, 2013, 04:06:54 AM ---
--- Quote from: BonesMS on January 27, 2013, 02:42:49 AM ---
--- Quote from: Twoapenny on January 26, 2013, 07:16:52 AM ---Thanks, Bonesie,
That's probably similar to what's happened to me. I remember sitting in a car smoking weed after a particularly heavy night out - all sorts of drugs - and thinking "there must be more to life than this". And that was a long time ago now, the booze took a lot longer to get rid of completely - probably another ten years and, like you, I don't crave either of those things now. But I sort of don't crave anything else either? I feel an almost constant sense of just getting through the day and being kept sane by simple pleasures like a film or a book and some chocolate. I find interacting with people tiring and, a lot of the time, boring? I don't think that's normal? It's different online, the face to face stuff isn't there, it doesn't feel like you have to think about anything other than what you are saying, particularly when it's in an anonymous way like this (I know a lot of us know each other well online but in the real world we could walk past each other in the street and not have a clue). So forums I can cope with, I like to read, I have a whole wonderful life inside my head of how I'd like it to be and what I imagine 'life' should or could be like, but the reality is I've done the housework this morning, we'll go and do some shopping after lunch, I'll log on again after dinner and then I'll watch a film after my son has gone to bed. I can't even think of anyone I'd like to see or speak to, or anything I'd really like to do? I seem to have fallen in love with my pyjamas! They're very cute and snuggly :)
(((((((((((((((((((((((Bones))))))))))))))))))))))))
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(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Tupp))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I can relate to that. Not having a professional, who gets it, to talk to makes things difficult on my side of the Pond.
What I've started to do is some creative writing based on my imagination within the Star Trek Universe. I'm not planning on sharing it at this time....just writing for my own entertainment.
--- End quote ---
I think that's it, it's not being able to talk to people who understand - not just about the big things like this, but about other aspects of my life - my son's disability, being lonely, finding it hard to trust people, finding TV boring, not caring who wins X Factor - big things and small things. Sometimes I try and open up and I'm met with blank looks or silences - or those complete change of topics that people do when they really haven't a clue what to say next.
I love the idea of creative writing. I find I never finish anything - I feel incredibly enthusiastic for a couple of days and do loads and then leave it. I like the sound od something within Star Trek, though, I think it's nice to be writing just for your own sake without the pressure of trying to get it published or asking others to read it - just something for you to enjoy for yourself and not have to share :)
((((((((((((((((((((Bonesie))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
--- End quote ---
Thanks, (((((((((((((((Tupp))))))))))))))))))).
I have to admit, that I am lonely because no one around here GETS it.
With creative writing, the beauty of it is that I can write at my own pace.....let the story percolate for awhile, then go back to it when my imagination starts thinking of more details to add. I started writing my story back in June 2012 and just started dumping my issues into it.....it feels therapeutic. I don't know if there is any such thing as therapeutic creative writing.
BTW, I borrowed a FUN idea from Tribbles author, David Gerrold.....WRITERS REVENGE!!! Include your enemy in the story and treat them like a RED SHIRT or any way that feels right to you!!!! You could set your phaser on heavy stun or vaporize the !@#$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bones
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Bonesie, I like the idea of getting your revenge via a story! What a great idea. It is lonely when no-one gets it, I feel like that a lot, too. At the same time I feel like I'm trying to hammer myself into a hole that just isn't made for me. Why should we be in holes? Why do we need so badly to fit in? I cut short a conversation with a 'friend' this morning - my new 8 minute rule - if there's no question from them about me then I'm not talking any longer. I feel like I'm interviewing people sometimes. Two way conversation - I need to practise!
Strangely, I've been to the doctor this morning and there may be a problem with my heart. Odd that that's come up within a couple of weeks of that letter about my mum's heart problems. I'm wondering if my aunties will badger my mum to be nice to me if I write and tell them that I'm ill? Somehow I doubt it (I'm not going to write to them, by the way, it's just a hypothetical) :)
((((((((((((((((((((((Bones)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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(((((((((((((((((((((((((Tupp))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Please keep me posted about what the doctor says. I hope it won't be too bad.
I'll write more later. I'm dealing with the aftermath of a burst pipe in my home and everything feels like it's been tossed upside down.
JustKathy:
--- Quote ---BTW, I borrowed a FUN idea from Tribbles author, David Gerrold.....WRITERS REVENGE!!! Include your enemy in the story and treat them like a RED SHIRT
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I'm doing this right now. I'm almost done with the first draft of my first novel, which has nothing to do with Ns, but has allowed me to insert a bit of revenge. All of my bad characters are being named (first names) after people who did me wrong. I doubt anyone but me will get the references, but that's okay. I feel a whole lot better for it.
BonesMS:
--- Quote from: JustKathy on January 31, 2013, 11:13:42 AM ---
--- Quote ---BTW, I borrowed a FUN idea from Tribbles author, David Gerrold.....WRITERS REVENGE!!! Include your enemy in the story and treat them like a RED SHIRT
--- End quote ---
I'm doing this right now. I'm almost done with the first draft of my first novel, which has nothing to do with Ns, but has allowed me to insert a bit of revenge. All of my bad characters are being named (first names) after people who did me wrong. I doubt anyone but me will get the references, but that's okay. I feel a whole lot better for it.
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I LOVE IT!!!!! After I Red-Shirted twits in my story, I felt so much better too!!! Maybe a group of us can get something FUN going! :)
Bones
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